Saturday Morning in New Diary

Went to bed early I had a hard time falling a sleep. I woke up at 3 this morning feeling kind of groggy. I will be ok after a good cup of coffee. Life is good. The dreaded weekend is upon us. I hate the weekend. I am in my apartment with nobody to talk to. I start dwelling on shit that gets me depressed By Monday morning I feel like shit.

I plan on doing something different this weekend. I swear I am not going to let my mind go crazy. I am going to read. TCM is showing John Wayne movies all day today. I love John Wayne. I might watch a couple of them. I can get lost in movies. Then there is always Celtic
Women. I can listen to t hose ladies sing all day. They are so beautiful and they sing like angles.

I had a good day yesterday Worker came. She is now on my friends list on FB. We were talking yesterday. She was talking about her doctor’s appointment. Regular doctor was on vacation, She saw somebody else Then she was talking about how one of her friends is moving to Louisiana This lady wants to be with her bf. The worker Kelly does not think it will work out She asked how my appointment went. I told her doctor finial put me on something for anxiety. I was supposed to get it yesterday afternoon.

After she left I plaid a few chess games on the computer. In the afternoon I started to read my book. I was able to concentrate and did a lot of reading. I am really enjoying my book Also I bought two books yesterday. On of them is How The Hell did This Happen: The Election of 2016 and another book is Dark Night of the Soul : A Guide through Finding your Way Through Life’s Ordeals by Thomas Moore . I was book browsing yesterday and these two caught me eye. Kelly my worker says this is an addiction and I guess she is right. I have always been addicted to books and no matter how broke I am always come up with money to buy books. I read almost all the book I buy and actually learn a few things so I don’t think it is a waste of money. At least I’m not out there buying drugs or alcohol.

Yes I had a good day yesterday. I guess the ticket is to take one day at a time and try not to worry about things. I can just do my thing which is sitting on my ass and reading or listening to music. I really have nothing to worry about and all the anxiety I experience is from my own stupid thoughts. The ticket is not to let those thoughts get started and I do that by escaping into a good book.

That is the plan for the weekend. Read, read , read, music, music and more music then check out a John Wayne Movie. Above all think rational positive thoughts I can do this. I can do this an will get through the weekend with no problems. After all life is good.