Summer is gone in Watching Life Fly By

~Chloe will be 3 in less than a month. We got her a “big girl” bed yesterday. She was opposed to the idea till about 5 days ago. She loved it last night. Slept her normal night. It’s nap-time…I just put her in and I’m praying she stays, but thinking we will have a battle of the wills in a few minutes.
~For Chloe’s birthday we are not doing a big party. We are going to a safari park and zoo a few hours away on her birthday weekend. We will do cake/pizza on the Sunday before her birthday with her grandparents and maybe our family friends.
~Chloe is talking all the time. She’s been having full conversations for months. She’s sassy and at times mouthy. I love her strong personality even if she drives us crazy sometimes. She loves to be outdoors, to swim, fish, and be in the fields with her daddy. She will hunt, she loves to shoot a gun. She also wears dresses almost daily and loves cute sandals. She enjoys playing with her dolls and loves make-believe of all kind. She cries easily and moves on quickly. She’s rough and doesn’t know her own strength. She loves to paint, play with play-doh and help cook.

~Mike is doing well. He is fun, outgoing, sweet and caring. We don’t see eye to eye on much but we compromise well. He loves being outdoors and forgets where he lives at times. He is always helping somebody and treats everyone like family…sometimes making me feel like we are second to all else.

~I’m not pregnant. I feel like a failure. We have a gorgeous, bright, healthy daughter…I want a sibling for her. I hate she doesn’t have a sibling close in age and may never get one at all. I cry constantly about it at night. It’s heartbreaking to me. Nobody seems to understand.
~Work starts back next week. I go in on the 1st for a “flex day” then we start full time “teacher days” on the 3rd. The kids return on the 9th. We are down at least 6 teachers still. They cut one position for SpEd which is terrible for us, as we were told we would probably get an extra one. Our administration was moved around…a part-time assistant principal became out full time principal and we kept our full time assistant none of us like. We added a new assistant to fill the empty spot- he’s going to be eaten alive. Just based on his picture and “bio” they sent out to us…this will not work. He is a white man, middle aged, pudgy and balding. He looks terrified. He has ZERO admin experience and a little teaching experience they said. His name begins with Mr. Coch…meaning kids with call him Mr. Cock within moments of meeting him. I’m excited for the classes/collaborative teachers I’ve been assigned. I’m not excited to be department head. I did move offices, we all did. It’s going to be an adjustment sharing an office, but we are in a main building instead of a dilapidated trailer.
~I feel like I need to earn more money. I will attempt to teach some kids after school for home-bound instruction. These are kids the doctor takes out of school due to surgery or mental illness. I hope I can fit hours in and still feel like I’m a good mother to Chloe.