Updating. Just sharing information. in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

Eye Appointment?

Mild Glaucoma.
Already significant damage to the optic nerves.
Catching it early.
Using eye drops.
God, I hope that at least stops it. There is no way to reverse it. I’ll never get that back. But seriously… if this gets worse?
I can do anything/everything I want to do in this life if I am in a wheel chair. I can’t if I am blind. All of my favorite things require vision.
This sucks.

Tried to be a good person for most of my life. May have failed once or twice. But certainly not as bad as a large number of people I know who have extreme financial success.
Fibromyalgia and the threat of complete immobility in COLLEGE.
I decide “Not going to let it slow me down. Maybe I get a little fatter and can’t dance; but I’m not just going to accept Disability and I’m going to make something of myself. Law School!”
Law School was… exactly what I needed. Yes, the Marriage was at a VERY dark VERY low point. But everything else about Law School was good. So then off to find that first job? Doesn’t happen for a year. A dark year. Then I get a job! Pays well. But when we arrive… shit. The place is corrupt, tiny, and there is no hope of doing anything besides drinking with the wife. Yeah, the relationship with the wife improved and money was made. But I wasn’t learning anything and both Wife and I were feeling painfully isolated. So, move to Des Moines. Surrounded by friends and family and things to do. But we’re not making any money. And I have no insurance. But Wife is making progress on her mental health.
Now Glaucoma for me. What the shit?