Therapy appointment in New Diary

It is 3:26am. Went to bed way early last night. I got up around 2. I work up very refreshed this morning. I must have slept good. Yesterday was a good day. I finial broke down and had a shower. That put a whole new perspective on things. Took it when my worker was in. She bought me a Ron Biscuit from Tudors. She didn’t have much in the way of cleaning to do. We sat and talked and got a few thing s strait.,

I felt bad for her buying me breakfast; I felt uncomfortable about it a lot of times. We talked about that. She said part of her duties is fixing meals. She cannot cook. She said she doesn’t mind buying me breakfast. We also talked ab out the 3rd. I said my case manager can take me this time. I was wondering if she could do it next month. She said yes that would be fine. Then we were talking about different things,. Actually she does most of the talking and i sit and listen.

I have never been much of a talker. I always said that talk is cheep. When I do have something to say I say it and you can take it to the bank. I’m a good listener I like it when people talk to me I will sit and listen to somebody’s story offer a few comments and they can rattle on. I just do not have much in the way of feedback or comments. Always had that problem and not being able to carry on a conversation was a big problem with my former girlfriend.

I have always been like that. Part of the problem is I have severe hearing loss., It is very hard for me to hear people a lot of times. I miss a lot and it is hard to offer feedback when you can’t hear half of what were saying. Felt very frustrated because my gf would talk to low and soft. I would have to ask her to repeat herself three or four times before I could finially get what she was saying. I think we both got very frustrated over our communication probl3em I think this was part of the main reason for our resent break up.

After my worker left I didn’t do much. I sat in front of the computer . I chatted with Comcast. My bill was due yesterday. I explained to them I don’t get my check until the third. and I can pay it in full then. They said that would be fine. I asked them why I was being billed twice. Again they told me because I changed my package in the middle of a billing cycle. Main thing I wanted to know with Comcast was if we are ok. They told me I did not have a problem. I was pretty well satisfied with that session.

I was on Prosebox yesterday afternoon. i saw where Chocolatechip wrote an entry. Oh I said she must be at the library. I was thinking she is on Facebook. I got on Facebook and saw she was online. I asked if we could chat and she said yes. We chatted on FB for a whie. I asked how she was doing and she said fine. I told her I wasn’t doing so good. She asked what I have been doing to make myself happy. I said not much of anything. I asked her how her food situation was doing and if she had plenty to eat. She said she has plenty of tv dinners left. She also said that she could give me ten tv dinners since I shared food with her the first of the month. I said that was fine and I bought more groceries.

She asked about the credit card situation. I said it wasn’t looking good. I will be able to pay it off on the 3rdf and have $20 enough for laundry and meds. i said I have enough Homestyle Bakes to see me through. I plan on using those up in July. I’m not going to use the credit card next month unless it is absolutely necessary.

I told her about the run in Kelly and me had it with my neighbor. I said they had it out in the hallway. She told Alice about it and we filed a complaint against her. She asked what would come of it. i said nothing much. She said sometimes things take time with the Housing Authority. She asked if she was screaming again since then. I said I haven’t heard anything. She said maybe she was told about it.

We had a nice chat. We chatted for a few minutes. She said I she had to get off. I told her I would always love her. She said she would always love me. Well that was about it for our chat session.

I haven’t felt lik3e reading ver y much. i am having a lot of trouble concentrating. Then they the book is getting sad d. He is killing off all of the characters except Roland . They are almost near the Dark Tower. There is going to be a finial outcome between Roland and Mordrid. I want to find out about the ending but it is hard going. I really got involved with the characters in this story and now they are all gone. I’m kind of sad about it and it is hard for me to go. But I read for a cou8ple hours yesterday and fixed a good tv dinner for supper.

Well I watched the news and part of Jeopardy then went to bed for good around 7:30

I have a therapy appointment today. It is at 9. I really don’t want to go but I have a lot to talk to my therapist this time.