less than a month until my trip in tak faham

Sometimes when I see friends posting stuff on Facebook about things they are doing I feel the need to do the same thing even though I don't really want to. I find I'm really easily influenced I guess. One of my old good friends who I used to work with posted about getting VMA red carpet tickets and I thought. HMM THAT SOUNDS KIND OF UNIQUE EVEN THOUGH I HATE MTV AND EVERYBODY I THINK I WILL RUTHLESSLY APPLY FOR TICKETS AND CHECK MY EMAIL EVERY TWO SECONDS TO SEE IF I GOT THEM.

I'll probably lose all tiny iotas of respect anyone had for me when I say this but I would go just to see Miley because I think she's cute.

Plus I feel like red carpet thing is a good bucket list thing.

This is like my replacement for Malibu and Camel Menthol Lights. I seriously don't need any other addictive substance in my life if I have chai.

My mom called me to talk about grad school again. Really irritating that she doesn't get it.

Her: "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST APPLY NOW? WHY ARE YOU WAITING??"

Me: "Uh because the GRE is 200 dollars, application fees are 100 dollars, I don't have that much research experience, and I want to gain some work experience. Plus if you talk to any PhD I would bet they didn't enter school until 25 or 26"

Her: "WELL ILL PAY FOR THAT TEST AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOURE GONNA PASS"

Me: "Mom...you don't pass or fail the GRE it's about getting high scores...."

Her: "JUST APPLY NOW THE LONGER YOU WAIT THE LESS LIKELY YOURE GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN. ILL HAVE THE DOCTORS AT MY CLINIC WRITE YOUR RECOMMENDATION LETTERS. YOU ARE GOING TO THE U OF M."

Me: "Uhh...the chances of that are slim and none"

Her: "WHAT DO YOU MEAN? YOU ARE FROM HERE OF COURSE YOU CAN GO TO THE U OF M"

Me: "Being from there doesn't make any difference. I have a better chance of getting into Princeton or Cornell. The U of M has one of the most selective Psych PhD programs in the USA"

Her: "YOURE SMART YOULL GET IN"

Me: "Its like 5 out of every 200 people who apply"

Her: "REMEMBER YOU WERE IN THAT GIFTED PROGRAM IN MIDDLE SCHOOL"

Me: "I have to go. The other people at Starbucks can hear you screaming through the phone.

Her: "DO YOU WANT ME TO SCHEDULE THAT GRE FOR YOU? WHY DONT YOU COME AND TAKE IT HERE?"

Me: "...That's ok Ma I don't think I need to fly to Minneapolis to take the GRE...I guess I'll take it next month."

Why do I listen to her? She doesn't make any sense.

Bad decision I know. Well I guess not so much bad decision as it is most likely going to be a waste of money because I probably wont get in...but oh well. I guess the crazy woman does have a point. It's probably better to try every year.

Fuck I guess this means I have a lot of work to do before December.

I guess this also means that while I'm in Malaysia I'll be studying. GREAT I LOVE PRESSURE