Today in My Fucking Feelings

I saw you today. You didn’t talk to me. Didn’t look me in the eye. You seemed upset by my being around. I kept my distance. Your girlfriend seemed upset by my too. I saw you and her cuddling and kissing. That’s new. Hopefully it means you two are growing closer. Despite my jealousy it made me happy.

I had a moment of closeness with another friend tonight. We never really had a connection before. It was like we were fighting to be friends but had no idea how. Maybe now we can be friends. That makes me happy. We cried together. I still can’t tell her all my craziness but its nice to finally have that connection. Hopefully we will get to go fishing tomorow with my son.

Didn’t like the new guitarist. There isn’t anything wrong with him he just didn’t seem to fit. I’m still hoping Tony will come back.

Met a few other people too. All together I’d say it was a productive day socially. More so than I’ve achieved in quite some time. Can’t sleep now though. Perhaps I will continue reading Exodus now that I have a pen to take my notes! How could I leave home without a pen?!