Better Man in Every day scata

Pearl Jam cover by Chris Cornell

I cleaned off my altar, washed everything that was on it (except my BOS, of course), and hand washed the cloth. I really hope I don’t have to iron the thing. I am not one to iron anything. Even an altar cloth lol

The table looks so damn naked right now. Every time I walk by it, I touch the pentacle out of habit. The table is going to lay bare until Tuesday when I have time to put it all back together. For some reason this is giving me a little anxiety. I don’t want to put the altar cloth in the dryer because Goddess knows what will happen to it.

lol lol I’m going to try using a blow dryer on my hair. I’m thinking I’ll fuck around with it later. Take a shower then do…whatever to my hair. I know what I want it to look like, but lol the chances of it happening are slim to none.

Shit. I just closed this window. Distracted by singing off key. I wish I could sing. I wish I could play guitar, but I just don’t get it watching youtube videos. My brain/body connection is just not there. I used to play keyboard, but I don’t think I even remember how to do that. smh I took keyboard through sophomore year, along with music theory (not that easy imho) But… nothing. Nothing is there.

I am worried about my forgetfulness. I do not remember things from one day to the next. I feel stupid. I mean really stupid. ::sigh::

Seeing that I’m taking a fb break, don’t be surprised if I write a lot. I don’t expect anyone to read, though.

See ya.