Feels like skin w/edit in Random Thoughts

Last night i put in a mixed cd from years ago, “Mix me a Cure,” a mix of different songs by The Cure (oh-so-clevah!).

I’ve thought about writing for a while now. This morning might be the first time i;ve felt that i am ready to, or have my thoughts in order enough to, talk. About Ian. But also about myself.

First though, i will just chat a bit about my life. Maybe that will prime me to open up.

But now.... time to work

i don’t know what i was thinking, trying to write while i was at work. It’s state testing time, which is stressful on the kids. Since i teach 3 grade levels, i get to experience it all month long (not super stressful, but it takes a lot of energy)

My life has been very full of yoga and meditation lately. I found a studio i love in portland, but it is quite a drive for me. Two of the classes/teachers are 7:30 to 9:00, which is quite late for me.

We had a stint of nice weather, in the 70’s. At first i discovered yoga on the bedroom deck in the afternoon, then i explored yoga and meditation in the morning before work....which was glorious.

I turned on the Lyft app for the first time since DEcember. They have a special going- do 15 rides before next tuesday and get a bonus $200. I could really use that cash. The only problem is that since i live in vancouver, there are fewer rides than in pdx. Generally i hope that a ride takes me across the river and go from there.

My therapist says i should ‘graduate’ from therapy by the final weekend of my school year. That’s the stuff i really want to get into, but i am not sure i have it in me right now. I almost think i need to take a hit of pot and really delve in.

I planted raspberries in my backyard! I have a shiro plum tree baby back there! I have a baby liberty apple tree!

I am trying, as much as possible, to not have to pay for new berry plants, but it seems like if i want blueberries, i will have to pay.

I have July 3-8 booked at an airbnb in Chicago. I am very excited about that trip, i;ve never been to Chicago. I hope the city and i will get along, like Minneapolis and i did.

I also get a few days in Minneapolis for a family reunion. I am a little bummed that i decided to be gone so long right at the end of the school year, without giving myself a break (my last day of work, because of snow, is june 23rd. we are supposed to go in the 26th, but it is understood that teachers put in so many hours over their contract that we dont have to).

Well, i guess i am not in the mood to delve in. It was a good try.

Last updated May 12, 2017