Long overdue in Tackling 2017

Wow I can’t believe how long it has been since I last wrote.

After the last entry I made.... I decided to take him back 4 days after I kicked him out.... things took a turn for the worse. I felt very disconnect to Ryan, I didn’t like that feeling so I asked him to leave ( a week after he moved back.. I know) he just wouldn’t leave. He said I’m crazy and that I’m a bitch for doing this to him. But I needed him to leave so I could start the healing process ON MY OWN. I told him whatever happens later in the future we’ll take care of it.

Nope he wouldn’t leave in fact he told me ( why don’t you leave and I’ll stay here.) excuse me? So that line piss me the F off so I called the police and the next day Ryan left. He hates me for it but I needed to do that.

Ryan left on Feb 3rd. Now it’s May so it have been 3 months since I see or hear from him. But I’m doing good. I think I made the right decision. I mean I wouldn’t feel good now if he stay. We weren’t doing good in last few months and, let’s face it we need space and time apart.

He’s currently living with his coworker who is 20 and they’re fuck buddies too lol so I guess he’s living the grand life while I’m here busting my ass to make a living. We are still in contact with his son and that will NEVER change. His son is our family and that’s it.

His mom kind of fell off and vanished. Then I later learned from Ryan’s sons mom that his mom told her that I try to turn him against me....

April, she called us and wished Lexi an happy birthday and wanted us to stop by. I didn’t respond. Left it at that and she have been trying to talk to us since then. Two days ago she text me ” ashley I still love you and I want to talk to you about some things. Can we see each other”

I just don’t know.....