Snow! in All of Me

I love snow!Something about it just feels so magical!Of course,I live in an area which doesn't get much snow!We have snow tonight.I took the dogs for a walk and it just enveloped me in a beautiful world of serenity.I felt my brain be calm and that was a gift. My dogs were intrigued,sniffing and twitching their little tails along with the falling snow.

I've been going to the gym everyday,except today,because the gym closed when it snowed.So,I took a walk!I jogged a little.Oh,I also ate spaghettios.I'm pretty sure those weren't part of my nutrition regimen...but I ate a salad for lunch and a banana for snack!Close enough?ha,I wonder why I can't lose weight.

Also.I gave all my animals middle names tonight.Well,the dogs already had them.Now the cats have them too.I watched my blind cat chase my dog's tail and marveled at the fact that she was so amused.This is why I may be single forever,or maybe someone will appreciate all this lol.

I watched Queen Latifah-she had old ladies on talking about sex!Does anybody remember that old lady who gave sex advice late at night?I used to love her!

Queen Latifah led to a weird reflection on my sex life,and how I really should stop equating sex with love.We scorpios are so emotional...I think lots of other people are too but lately I am really into astrology.

This old man at the hospital today asked me how many boyfriends I have.I said none and he asked why not?Oh,if I had answered that question!It would have been highly unprofessional,of course,but also would have taken a long time.

I'm currently obsessed with John Legend...or his music,I guess...oh and I have a crush.It's one of those little girl crushes,similar to the ones I used to have in fourth grade...the ones which would keep me on the phone with my friends giggling.To elaborate,it is consuming my dreams and he gives me butterflies,making me melt with just his presence or a text message.Let me clarify that it is only a crush.This is one of my friends with whom I spend lots of time.He's a safe crush,because I doubt anything will happen.Ok,maybe he kissed me.Maybe I liked it.

We have been talking for quite a while...keeping it casual,out for drinks with friends,etc. Well,last weekend we were out and he was really affectionate-holding my hand,rubbing my back,and then he kissed me-and it was a perfect first kiss.

It is possible that we spent all Friday night cuddling,laughing,talking,watching movies,and kissing...in complete comfort with each other-no pressure,no awkwardness,and he didn't try anything that would have made me uncomfortable because it was too soon..sn:I hate when they try things and it is too soon!

We hugged a long time before he left my apartment...just stood there holding each other and he was rubbing my back. It was really comfortable,like I was weightless,like I could fall asleep like that haha.I know I'm not ready for a relationship,but i get the feeling he doesn't really want one either.

Would I be delusional to think that we could end up together one day far down the road?The answer is yes!Haha.Nothing else will happen because I am working on myself and focusing on me and I don't even know if he is that interested.Still,I'm going to work on myself while enjoying the butterflies.... Goodnight!