Need is an ugly word for me in Current Events

Sometimes I like to let my demons out to play for some reason. I had been so stressed with work that I was going to crazy and taking everybody with me. I was even bumming cigarettes off an employee. I am so sick of my drama honestly. I think I snapped out of it. I just needed a break from that disaster. During the depression part of my “nervous breakdown” I realized that I have a few things that I need to work through in my life and tomorrow I am tackling it. Today I completely cleaned this house so I have no distractions. Just me developing an action plan. I don’t like to use the word need but for my mental health I got to face my anxiety triggers. It’s a balancing act fighting off my anxiety and depression but I got to stop dropping the ball. ,

I need to work on my art. Especially the selling aspect of it.
I need to work on my finances. I need more money and less debt.
I need to make appointments with all my doctors.
I need to start meal prepping and meal planning. I need to structure my diet.
I need to start actually going to the gym. Working out at home has given me results but I want to take it further.
I need to look into art classes and writing workshops.
I need to stop making excuses and I need to stop complaining.