Trust. in The Present

4 months ago, I asked you to stop talking to her. 4 months ago you said you couldn’t just stop, but you were we’re working on it. 2 weeks ago, I saw you had a recent snap from her. I see you like things she posts on Facebook-hell, I’ve even seen you tag her in stuff recently. What am I supposed to think? Obviously, you have not taken seriously my request to get her out of our life. At least with a text message, I can snoop and see what’s been said-and as you know, there have been conversations that happened that I was not pleased with. With Snapchat, I can only imagine the possibilities.

What makes matters worse is I’m yoo chicken shit to ask you about this. I need to speak up, but I’m afraid of what I’m going to hear.

I made a simple request. Please honor it. I’m your wife. I don’t think I’m being unreasonable. I want to be more trusting, but it’s so hard when you ignore my requests.

On the flip side, I know I haven’t been very present lately. I’m tired, I’ve been sick, I’m burning the candle quickly at two ends… It’s a viscous cycle in that I’m too tired to have sex (or any meaningful interactions), I feel a major disconnect, I get scared you’re finding solace elsewhere, and then I don’t want to be intimate with you. I need to work on making time and an effort; you need to work on making good on your promise.