Guess I wasn't done that entry lol ... in 2017

I know I just wrote an entry but I had a passing thought…

Why is it that when you have NO money, you want to spend money?? lol And its not like I have no money, its just that the money we do have, should probably be saved…what with not knowing what the hell is next for us…

Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like maybe its not so much the fact that want to spend money, I just think I need something fresh and new and positive in my life right now. ?? Maybe? Like everything doesn’t suck, but there is a lot going on that DOES suck… so a nice new couch set would help lift my spirits. lol I even considered repainting the entire living room lol Which I just did by the way. Same colours its always been but I just freshened it up…

I need a cheap change. Suggestions? I need to do something that makes a change, but is free lol. And no,

Also going back to not knowing what is next for us, really sucks. I felt secure the last few years. Since he started working at GM. I felt like it was a steady job with good ish benefits and it was a career for him, ya know? Now its like we are in our young 20’s again just trying to figure things out. I hate that. I really feel like we are at the age where our lives should sort of be figured out by now and we can breathe. We WERE like that. We WERE relaxed and calm and everything was basically great… Thats all bee turned upside down now and its like wtf, I’m too old for this shit.

I mean that in MY case. I know not everyone has their lives figured out by 30. But we sort of did. We bought this house over 7 years ago. Like we are married with kids (5 and 8) and we have a home and two vehicles. I think we are doing well for being in our young 30’s of course but now we are off course…

I’m rambling. I hope you get what I mean though. Like, we are doing great for our age, I know that. But we have taken a step back now, and I don’t feel comfortable about it.

Kristen <3