Work week is over finally. in Since OD is shutting down....

Ugh, I have been up since 6am. I don’t know why, probably just glad it’s my Friday and I have the next 2 days off. I got my oil changed this morning and I have a friend that works there so he gave me a discount which was nice. Work was absolutely ridiculous today and I couldn’t wait to get out of there. I was so over rude customers and was happily ready to leave an hour early.

Yesterday a few different things happened. Most of which were somewhat positive. Eric had messaged my friend and is still insisting on wanting to step up and be a Dad. He said that he didn’t want to abandon his child like his Dad to him when he was young. He didn’t mention how he planned to be Dad though. Again, he lives in another state and I’m not sure how he plans to be there for our child long distance. He has messaged her today asking if she had told me and of course she doesn’t answer him. I’m still wondering why he hasn’t been served yet and hopefully his messages will stop once that happens.

My brother talked my Mom and had invited me to niece’s birthday party. I guess they were going to have it today but have moved it to next Saturday. I let my Mom know that there was no way I was going to get out of work today or even leave early because God forbid anyone ever cover for me. I will only work until 4pm next Saturday so I can go. I don’t know if this will be a start to getting her back in my life or not, but I’m not going to get too excited.

Mentally I’m still feeling like I did the right thing by getting the restraining order. I don’t know if he was telling my friend the truth about coming back but this may influence his decision either way. I’m just glad to know that the drama, threats, name calling, and going back and forth about paternity are going to stop. I know that once he gets served, he won’t feel that it’s fair to him because he refuses to take any responsibility for anything, but his bullshit wasn’t going to stop until I took legal action.

I know that he thought he was just going to plan on making my life a living hell and there’s no way in the world I was going to let that happen. That was my biggest concern once he started being mean and stayed that way. He’s not going to be anywhere near me or our child until he gets the help he needs. It’s not even up for consideration. I don’t know why he’s such an angry, hateful person but I have enough to be concerned with that I’m not going to invite anyone’s negativity or drama into my life.

I will have my ultrasound coming up in about 3 weeks and I’m going to let my Mom know that she’s more than welcome to come but she either needs to turn her phone off or stay in the waiting room. I’m not going to deal with her phone ringing and my Dad bugging her to hurry up because he has some drama he needs her to worry about at that moment. Every single time she’s around me, he’s constantly calling with some kind of problem just to interrupt because I think he’s upset he’s not the center of her attention and it’s not all about him for a few minutes of the fucking day.

It’s completely fine that he has no interest in me or my child but for him to constantly interfere with my Mom having interest is very selfish. I’m seriously going to blow the fuck up on him. My Dad is completely co-dependent on my Mother and can’t function without her when she’s not dealing with him or his problems but for him to try and stop her from being there for me makes me want to strangle him. His selfishness has disgusted me for years and now that I need my Mom more than I ever have, I refuse to let him make this so difficult that I just give up because that’s not fair.

Anyways, I’m going to lay down and watch tv. I’m fucking exhausted. My Mom is coming again for an overnighter tomorrow night and I wanna get up and shower and what not before she comes. Goodnight people.