winter. er last winter. in 2017. got it.

from feb. 23rd: ‘ so today was.it well. nothing happened untill it did and i waited around forever. i got up at 9:40 cause i thought i had a meeting. which would’ve been at 10. but then the lady wasn’t at the house which is ok but i’m like wait. why would she reschedule something same time we have the meeting? well anyway the meeting got cancelled and then moved up to 12:30.......and i didn’t find all this out untill 1. so but at 10:20 i’m like oh god i hope they haven’t been waiting for me all this time. so i went to what i call the sitting room and checked.no no people. oh and we finally had the meeting at 2.it went well. it was w/ Milton he’s.........he’s the guy who comes by and sees how things are.he thinks they’re still good and i do too so.same pagers there. wow sorry that was so boring.thought it’d be longer than it is/was.

‘ i was so fuking confused last night. so i was at target and i’d gotten 3 cookies for .50. and the lady’s like ‘so should i put it in the bag or toss it?’ at least i think that’s what she said. ‘i’d like my receipt w/ me’. and prior to that she’d asked if i want a bag and i said ‘no’. but i could’ve sworn i saw her open one of their bags to put the cookies in it. and i’m like ‘in the bag’ and then i pictured her opening the cookie bag and putting the receipt in it. ‘what?’ sorry to ask you to repeat yourself.and so she asked me the same thing again. ‘er........w/ the...........’ and she put the receipt on top of the cookies ‘yeah there we go’. good thing she knew what was going on cause i didn’t.yes.i was that damn tired omfg. you know you’re tired when..........

from feb. 21st: ‘ it’s weird that i’ve been wanting cheese lately considering i don’t like.cheese all that much. [not apologising jus sayin]. well not by itself like i like mac & cheese [so long as there’s not too much cheese or it doesn’t have that weird stuff on the top of it], burritos, quesedillas, grilled cheese um pizza. but i don’t like lasagna.that’s not why. or like in stores when they have pasta w/ cheese on it. see i make the pasta and then i put the cheese on it so i don’t like it in that fashion. i don’t like a lot of food. everyone’s like ‘being a vegetarian’ which btw i’m actually not ‘is so much better’. um not........if you’re me. anyway. yeah this is why i could never be vegan it wouldn’t work for me. cheese wow god i can go on about cheese.

from feb, 17th: ‘ um. ....... so recently on the news it was on like pbs or something they had a story.of a guy who’d lost his wife. i don’t know how long ago it was but it seemed like it had been quite some time. and he’d built a museum for her. on the walls are photos of the 2 of them.he said she was lovely. i’ve obv. never met either of them but if he loved her that much.... i don’t think he should forget her. ya know? i mean that wouldn’t.do anything for anyone. that’s how i feel about Pat sans the museum part. yes it’s a bit unusual the museum but also we all have our ways of people who’ve er.i mean of keeping people who’ve left close to us his is just.more extreme. Pat was like a brother to me and i’m.going to spend the rest of my life missing him it feels that way anyway. he loved me. apparently a lot. i just.i really related to that news story and i liked it.

from jan. 16th: ‘ the only way to open a package of scissors is if you already have scissors. well that’s stupid. and then you need scissors to open that package.......and so on. and then when i get the sewing scissors out of their little bag thing they have this plastic dude wrapped around the ends. and i know why it’s there i just never liked the idea of it. they should just sell sewing scissors already opened but put the scissors in altoids tins. although.then people might think they were buying mints and then they’d be confused. well. i’ve put them in altoids tins. cause sharp things.make me nervous. as do radiators.

from jan. 12th: ‘ um. so the other day when. well it was the last time my friend & i got together. and i took oh. er ok so we were at the mall and i took photos of the carolers w/ my phone. and we were talking about it later and he’s like ‘well most people don’t care’ and something about ‘this is when you see people’s soul/s. and it was so fukin adorable and you were so happy.this is why i love this girl’. i mean wow. no but i care.about stuff like that. about flower meanings and old movies and taking photos of carolers. and i’m not ‘most people’. [well clearly].

from jan. 11th: ‘ ok see this is why back when i had a place of my own i never slept in my bed. that thing was wicked comfy and i have a hard enough time getting up as it is.......so. yeah. i slept on the sofa. well that and other reasons. like i know people are ’supposed’ to sleep in beds..........but that doesn’t work. as i just explained.

‘ alrite everybody. So for those who don’t know that charming little $2 bookstore by the king’s that’s by.Monaco & Leets closed down at some point in time idinno when. well i’m like never over there so it’s news to me.and i liked that place damnit.

from jan. 10th: ‘ so, apparently. this was back when i was still goin out to karaoke. anyway so i’d just gotten back from it and this chick i’d met at the bar called and in my nonsensical drunken haze i thought she was going to cook for me like.that night or something and i’m like ‘oh ok this is great this is awesome. like someone actually cares enough about me to cook for me awww’. um no yeah that never happened. like i said i was drunk so..........it’s not meant to make sense.

from jan. 9th: ‘ so, apparently. this was back when i was still goin out to karaoke. anyway so i’d just gotten back from it and this chick i’d met at the bar called and in my nonsensical drunken haze i thought she was going to cook for me like.that night or something and i’m like ‘oh ok this is great this is awesome. like someone actually cares enough about me to cook for me awww’. um no yeah that never happened. like i said i was drunk so..........it’s not meant to make sense.

‘ um so yesterday. my appt. w/ Milton was scheduled. well so I woke up at 10 got ready only to find out.that he wasn’t coming. which i’d found a bit funny cause well it’s a bit funny anyway and also as put i’d just woken up like 20 mins. ago and i’m not a morning person. it’s like oh for cryin out loud! so i went back to sleep for like er about 2 hrs. we went to the store at 1 which was where i ran into Kristen. we got back and at some point after i did my laundry and had dinner. and now here i am. [btw Milton didn’t come cause of the snow]. um well guess that’s it really.

from jan. 8th: ‘ um so yesterday. my appt. w/ Milton was scheduled. well so I woke up at 10 got ready only to find out.that he wasn’t coming. which i’d found a bit funny cause well it’s a bit funny anyway and also as put i’d just woken up like 20 mins. ago and i’m not a morning person. it’s like oh for cryin out loud! so i went back to sleep for like er about 2 hrs. we went to the store at 1 which was where i ran into Kristen. we got back and at some point after i did my laundry and had dinner. and now here i am. [btw Milton didn’t come cause of the snow]. um well guess that’s it really.

‘ yeah so at the store i’d turned in order to avoid the cookie sample lady. and there was Kristen. a: i don’t talk to random people and 2: i only have cookies/brownies w/ milk otherwise it just doesn’t feel right.to.not have a cookie.

‘ so while at the store i ran into Kristen she.........well i’m not sure what she actually does but she works for the same company as Amber [Milton does what Amber used to do] and Hannah and the lady work for. ‘the lady’ being the lady i live w/. idinno if people remember me mentioning Amber and Hannah a long........while back. it’s ok if people don’t. when Kristen saw me she used my full name. ok i gotta tell ya that’s a little weird. she’s nice she’s just.she’s a bit off [like i have room to talk] and she seems loud. i don’t not.like her.

from jan. 7th: ‘ what a weird day. wow. so at 9:20 the lady tells me that Milton’s coming today or something. and i’m like no he’s scheduled to come tom. so she calls him after which she’s like ‘i left him a message but he might be on his way so’. so I get ready at 10 cause idinno if he’s coming or not. only to have her a few mins. later tell me she was wrong and that yes he’s coming tom. yeah i’m not a morning person. it’s like ok talk to me in like 4 hrs. and then i’ll be awake. not that i’d be any more of a morning person tom. i’d just be more prepared for him. so then. i go back to sleep untill 2:40. she left at 3 and now just got back. like i don’t mind being at the house by myself it’s just the longest she’s been out. well i guess today wasn’t that eventful sorry wow. [oh Milton’s the guy who comes by to see how things are at the house].

from jan. 4th: ‘ so i’ve.been invited to a production of ‘funny girl’. and yes i want to see that show. [i also want to see ‘gypsy’ btw]. but it was the last movie i watched w/ Pat so i think it might be too soon. in March it’ll be 3 yrs. it took me.like a yr. to be able to sing ‘people’ from that movie. er i mean to be ready to sing it.so. if it were ‘cats’ it’d be different. [and yes i’d go see ‘cats’ again]. ya know. once Pat asked if it was ok if his uncle watched that movie as his uncle likes old movies. and i said no. and i still feel bad about that. sorry Bob. [unless.... his uncle ended up watching it anyway in which case........nicest uncle i’ve met].

from jan. 3rd: ‘ so everyone don’t go to the panera on 13th. well i mean you can but.it closed as i found out last wk. they opened up a new one downtown. [sorry when i say ‘downtown’ i mean 16th]. in lodo.

from jan. 1st: ‘ so wow. on.............Mon. [damn] we went to King’s the one by my place. [yes i still think of it as ‘my place’]. on uh Monaco. and wow well that was depressing. like i don’t remember it being that way back when i used to go there all the time. yeah that’s why i don’t visit the grounds of my elementary school. but it’s more the idea of going back there and remembering what it was like the last time i went that.is depressing. the school that is.

from dec. 24th: ‘ ok so i had like.a really good present moment yesterday. [being tues. cause to me the next day is 1 a.m. anyway]. so he & i were in the mall. and i heard the song ‘have yourself a merry little christmas’ [love that song] and i was thinking about how lucky i was/am to have someone like him and i was.so happy and then i’m thinking like ‘no this is it.right now. like this is actually all happening right now’. [oh also i’d had trees so. omygod those were. fukin good trees]. i never have present moments.

from dec. 18th: ‘ yeah so when i was at the store earlier. cause nothing ever happens now. um. the guy to my right accidentally took my receipt out of the thing. he must’ve been lookin at it for a min. and maybe he’s like ‘wait a minute........this isn’t our receipt’. at the same time i’m what happened to my receipt? it has left the building. or it would have had the following not happened. he’s like ‘is this yours?’ and i’m ‘yeah post its?’ ‘yeah sorry about that’ ‘it’s ok’. i just thought it was funny. he was probably as confused as i was.

‘ that moment when. you’re ready to go to the store only to have the lady tell you she’ll take you at 3 and then she says something about 2:30. and we leave at 2:40 as she’s talking to her husband about something. like damnit. hurry up and wait right? like oh for cryin out loud!

‘ so yesterday the lady left me a note telling me she was out running some ‘errors’. erm i knew what she meant but still funny. good luck w/.......those ‘errors’ i hope everything works out.

from nov. 26th: ‘ my mom’s dog had the best time today. so he really likes snow. he’d been out in the backyard for 10 - 20 mins. and he hadn’t barked which he usually does for awhile. so we were all wondering. well my dad brought him back in and he was so happy. it’s like ‘snow! yay! my fave thing this is the best thing ever! thank you nice people for letting me go out’. he has a lot of fur so he probably would’ve been ok out there in the cold.i hope. but he’s also like 10, 11, so. he’s so pretty. i tell him that too ‘you’re pretty’ or ‘you’re so pretty’. he can’t hear to well anymore but you know.

Anne Young he has similiar coloring to a rottweiler. he might be a collie cause of his face and he has similiar fur to one. actually his fur is what makes up most of him. and either way it’s good we got him inside.

from nov. 26th: ‘ so, yesterday while at whole foods eye of the tiger came on and the store clerk got so excited he dropped the items he was holding. he was whistling and i’m thinking ‘well someone’s having a good day’. and he’s like ‘wow i am so sorry’ and i’m like yeah you got so into the music yeah i was excited by the music. made my fukin day man. thank you. well it’s a good song.so. well if ya can’t have fun at work.

from nov. 20th: ‘ ya know when? you forget your laundry in the washing machine? yeah happened to me earlier tonight. so when i remembered it it’d been sitting there for like an hr. and then it went into the dryer. and it was ok. and warm. cause. i like that feeling. our laundry machine doesn’t beep when it’s done, so. er i mean washing machine. yeah there we go.

‘ ya know when? you don’t know where your cake is? yeah so wed. we had dinner then cake for dessert via my mom. [she didn’t make it she’d bought it. 3 mini cakes]. so i was at the counter and i see the container dude the came in but like..........where’d my cake go? ok i guess i’m having invisible cake then. awww just what i always wanted! how’d you know! you shouldn’t have! [btw the cake was on the table].

from nov. 19th: ‘ ok so yesterday we were talking and the topic of sheep came up. oh cause i was talking about my ginormous bed and the problems i have w/ the linens and my problems w/ my itchy ‘wool’ blanket. [well that’s stupid. i don’t remember why i got it in the first place except to maybe have a blanket]. so he’s ‘i don’t like wool’ ‘neither does my mom’ ‘then she wouldn’t be a good shepherd’ ‘also she’s not scottish, so’ ‘they have sheep in other places’. yes i’m aware. ‘every place you can think of. except for africa’. ‘yes a singular sheep in africa. that’s funny’ ‘no it is’. herding all the lions and whatnot. well it might be less funny now. it’s contextual now as they say.

from nov. 12th: ‘ yeah so i’m really good at putting things esp. when it’s regarding test results. i’ve been all freaked out cause omygod what if the test results aren’t good. [again. this is why i don’t check my voicemail]. so yesterday i called megan. my dr. who wasn’t in the office. but that way she’s not always the one calling me. [i still don’t know what the results are btw]. i didn’t leave a message cause i generally don’t when it’s someone i don’t know that well. and mine tend to be rambly and long. [although apparently she left me one. but like i said. the voicemail thing]. but i did get a flu shot yesterday. at target. w/ my sister. so hopefully i won’t get the flu cause i got it like 4 yrs. ago and no. yeah get your flu shot. [unless you’ve had a bad reaction to them in the past. or something. no but having gotten the flu i’m not all super adament about. getting the........yeah].

from nov. 5th: ‘ so the other day i was at whole foods. as i am. and i had chai. well we were there together. and i told him ‘this is chai btw’. and he goes ‘i know. i was there ‘oh’ ‘not that it was obvious to you’. just something that happened is all. [‘chai tea’. well if you want to be all redundant. ‘chai’ actually means ‘tea’ is my point. that’s like calling it ‘an atm machine’].

from nov. 3rd: ‘ so apparently when i was in boarding school we had a school dance. [that’s not the interesting part we had quite a few of those’. and at the dance we were given presents by ‘santa’. and evidently after i got mine or before or something i hugged him. and everyone was all like ‘awww’. oh yeah. me and hugs i’m telling you. it’s weird that that actually happened. and it doesn’t seem real. but anyway.

Anne Young not the me hugging people part that’s not weird. no it’s weird that a normal thing like that happened. ‘

Last updated July 16, 2018