aug stuff in 2017. got it.

aug. 1th: ‘ 13th: ‘ so my dad.is loud on the phone which is weird since he’s the quietest person i know.so the other day i’m at my mom’s in the kitchen and i thought he said something to me and i’m ‘ok!’. yeah i do that, when i don’t know what the person said and don’t want to ask them to repeat themselves. cause sometimes i can’t even w/ that. anyway. no he was on the phone.

from aug. 4th ‘ you know you’re growing up when.........you have dinner w/ your aunt and your dad. yeah used to be i’d have it w/ all the family members when relatives came.

from aug. 1st: ‘ so i don’t have kids and never have. um so yeah yesterday while at whole foods there was this dad w/ his kids in one of those shopping cart fake ‘car’ things. and so he went to go get well food. and the kids were there alone. and so i waited by them. and then the mom came back and i’m like ‘yeah i don’t have kids but if i did’ i’d want someone like me to watch them. oh and the mom said ‘thank you that was [v.] kind of you’. i don’t have any experience w/ kids or anything. over time i’ve taken it upon myself to wait by the kids untill their parent or whoever comes back. i never say anything to the kids i just wait. if they’re quiet and don’t say i’m much then i’m ok. [which is funny cause i also don’t have the patience for them same w/ pets]. but anyway yes kids. whole foods. the nice mom.

from july 29th: ‘ i rescued a bug today. in my park. well ok it was already dead. at first i wasn’t sure what kind of it was and so i wasn’t sure if i should move it.or not. and then i saw it was a beetle........and then i saw it was a ladybug and also dead. so i put it on a leaf and put it next to some flowers. w/ a stop in between the picking up and taking it to the flowers. a ladybug’s a beetle i think. oh bug-y.......

from july 25th: ‘ oh wow. not a good day to be an introvert. i went to the dentist [everything’s ok btw] where, there are people. it takes an hr. to get there and an hr. to get back and the appt. was an hr. but i was late cause.i won’t usually take the elevator w/ people cause i like having that time alone.well apparently they lock the stairs for some weird reason as i found out when i went to them. oh so i ended up taking the elevator.w/, people.damnit. yeah so when we got back the lady talked to me for a bit [nothing bad just a check in].then valerie [again she’s my mentor] came so, more people well a person. and now here i am.and i’m ready to not be w/ people for awhile.

from july 14th: ‘ i got rained on today. at my park. see this is why one should always wear a rain coat. [also fukin ac. godamn it’s almost unbearably cold in some places. anyway]. i got rained on 3x. no they were testing the sprinkler thing. like by the 2nd time. ..... i’m starting to nice a pattern here. maybe i should move. alrite think it’s working. i don’t really enjoy being rained on. actually i don’t like the feeling of things being wet. but anyway [again]. yeah that was interesting.

from june 27th: ‘ so this well.it was just weird. so on...........uh wed. when the bus drops me off at my mom’s the bus guy well not only does he walk me to the door. [um it wasn’t night so i don’t think that’s neccessary]. but he also. proceeds to turn the door handle to see if the door’s unlocked. ok not your turf man. it’s my mentor/a friend/my sister someone like that then it’s ok. but just.....for someone i don’t even know to do that. that’s just weird. it’s the same as if a random store clerk were to do that. like um i’m right here.let me do that. yeah hannah. who’s well.she was my behavior person. well when i was living at my last house she’d just come in not even knock or anything. it was so.weird. at least acknowledge that there’s people living in the house and, you know. ring, or something. don’t just, randomly come in.

from: june 10th: ‘ i. oh.......no like. this is really good. so i was out earlier and i was by whole foods and this guy w/ a comb in his hair asked me where a bus stop was. nothin unusual about that. and i told him. and after that he went “i appreciate you”. i didn’t know him had never seen him before…but usually people go ‘thank you for the help’. ya know they don’t talk directly about the person. and like.he made my fukin day. i don’t know if i’ll ever see him again but ya know what? thank you.i love you. omygod. it was kindof a beautiful moment. no ‘i appreciate you’.in that moment. and for those of you who’ve seen my backround profile image thing.well that’s from a story Pat told me once and now i kindof get it.wow.

Last updated July 17, 2018