muriel stuff er somewhat. and aj. ok so a bit of muriel stuff and aj.stuff. in 2017. got it.

so. again aj is Pat’s brother. ok so after all that happened w/ Muriel i got at aj. i figure well if it’s bothering me that much. then. yeah. i know he won’t tell her anything I’ve told him. well so I explained everything to him. and after I explained everything to him he’s like ‘post what ya like’. no i know that i’m not stupid. see this is what i don’t like about him. or most people actually. is they offer solutions. which is why i most of the time don’t. but apparently people don’t get that. see and this is yet another reason i don’t like people. humanity is ok i mean it’s not my fave thing ever. but i think i prefer humanity to people.
And he just.he doesn’t seem to take things seriously and he’s an optimist. oh so he’s like my dad. like he’s not one of those people who’s stuck in the past and I can’t relate to that. Pat’s brother i mean. yeah um once and this was recently we were talking about Pat i’m like ‘well i think he died from drinking cause i can relate to that’ and he’s like ‘i’d rather think he died of an anuerism than drinking’. ok so Pat did.died from an anuerism but i also think his drinking didn’t help that. ok well that that’s fine. you go live in your stupid happy bubble and not things dark actual real things happen. let me know how that works out for ya. I don’t have that world and I don’t want to. at least i don’t ignore mine. it’s dark but i don’t ignore it. yeah cause I’ve been there. cause I know what it’s like to be an alcoholic and I know what it’s like to be an addict. yes and that’s why it’s dark. is cause i don’t like people like that. er or i can’t relate to them. or both.
so now we’re not really talking either. yeah i might end up alone but at least it’s better.
no no it’s not. but if i’m alone i won’t have to deal w/ things like this.

Last updated July 16, 2018