A sniffle, a snuffle and a troublesome damned cold! in 2014 Journal

I've had a really bad dose of 'flu (probably man flu) or something similar. It has certainly been more than your average cold. For a whole week now I have been coughing, aching, going from hot to cold (physical symptoms, NOT my emotional state!) etc. Brain is unable to focus or process properly. Most definitely man-flu! A lot of the students have come down with it too here at Eccles (New Eccles Hall School or NEHS as most tend to shorten it to, an abbreviation I don't feel comfortable with as it seems to 'sterilize' the name. No, it is Eccles to me).

I have settled well into school life and feel as if I have been here for years. I guess I feel I 'belong' and that is a good feeling. Yes there are still little niggles and irritations but hey, that is life. I have learned to let go of those things I cannot alter. I just accept. I try my best to go with grace. I leave a lot of things unsaid these days and have discovered that in the great scheme of things it really does not matter most times. I express my views more by example than by confrontation. Confrontation being something that I do not like to deal with and in the past when I have made attempts to stand up for my views and opinions the outcome has, at times, been less than comfortable or just. So I accept and let go without compromising my own beliefs.

There are opportunities for me to develop as a person here. I find this place to be a very 'healing' place where my spirit can find the Great Spirit. Although during term time I have very little time I can call my own I do have time in abundance between terms to visit family and/or seek out adventures. My artwork has taken a very big back seat at this present time and I am missing that tremendously. Again, I am practising the acceptance thing - accepting that each moment has its purpose and I have a place in each of those moments; sometimes my place in that moment does not include my desires. I am happy here. I am happy in my Self. I am the person I was always meant to be; albeit I shunned that person for so many years.

Now I am getting into the realms of self-analysis I will steer away from the direction my writing is going. I need to focus on some practical tasks today. Today I must try to find my code to get onto the online tax return service. I was meant to do this last weekend but the cold (oops - meant man-flu!) took over and I left things. This means that once again, for another year, I am pushing the deadline. Mistress Procrastination is still with me it would seem! Once I find the code and gather my fostering payments from last year (of which I DO know the whereabouts) then it should not take me too long.

Yes, I miss fostering but I do not miss the stresses that came with it. Working (and living) in the school environment seems to suit me. I will write more on that another time. For now though I must go and attend to tasks-a-plenty.

~A~