Rotten - 05.01.14 in Your Face

Just feeling rotten today. I have started tracking my calories as I am disgusted at the weight I have put back on. Also went for a long walk. It's no wonder I am fat. I was so careful today, and made my calorie budget, but I have been eating WAY more than that lately. I guess I need to brush up on my food knowledge to get me back on track. I need to eat correct portions and weigh up the options: a small amount of junk, or a larger amount of healthier food.

But, goodness, I feel awful. Just rather despairing. Everything seems so bleak, even though I know it always works out in the end. I am spending my days doing anything and everything, if only to kill time. Feels more like I'm killing myself, though.

It just feels like there is less and less to look forward to, and more and more anxiety and angst to come.