self rant about being early in Second 1st

22 degrees out this morning, I’m not ready for this today. 5 to 5 am. I’m enjoying oatmeal and coffee. I will leave far to early like always. Sit in my car playing games and listening to music for nearly a half hour. WHY? Yeah I can’t figure that out anymore. When I lived an hour away it seemed logical that I was preparing for things to go wrong. A slow car in front of me, a flat tire, hitting a dear, now I have no idea. Shift start is 6:30. I live 15 mins away. I mean there is a train between here and there but It is not enough to muster being at work at 5:45 .... 5:45 that means I would finish breakfast, take out trash, make lunch and have my car warmed in the next 30 mins.... ugh oh yeah it’s going to be another way to early morning. Then again, I got up at 2:30 and tossed and turned the last 2 hours. No point in laying there anymore. By the time I leave I will have nothing else I can do here at home and will get restless. i mean if I’m going to sit here I might as well be sitting there.......