Confused. in 2014

Confused.
Things have just been.... better... I guess. This week was ok.

My mom took the kids last night so we could talk and go to dinner. My mom is not aware of the situation at all. We have discussed everything, in case we separate. We talked like adults. We had a nice dinner, talked about shared custody, talked about not going through lawyers or anything right now if we did separate. We would settle it ourselves for now, and then if we wound up happier, then go through with a divorce.

We both think, that separately, we would be better parents. Less stressed, less resentful etc. This week, before our little chat last night, we weren't even together. We called it quits, and barely talked to each other, then we knew we needed to discuss things. Thing is, we didn't really fight this week... He went to work, came home, helped me with kids, dinner, bed time, after kids were in bed, he went to work at the house hes helping renovate. Comes home at 10, we watch some netflix and go to bed. Anyway...

After talking, and having a nice adult convo, we wound up in bed together. ARGH. So now we are just here. We aren't separated, but I feel like the sex clouded our judgement. Its not like we haven't been having sex, because we have been. But after a huge important convo like that, that was likely the last thing we should have done. Stupid.

We had a good night, got the kids from my moms, put them to bed. He went to work, I tidied up and played some xbox... then he came home and we watched some netflix and went to sleep.

I'm just so confused right now. :(

Kristen <3