Maintaining in The Crimson Permanent Assurance

Things feel like maybe they are getting a little better, and I am maintaining a level of steadiness. Part if this has been helped by a sharp reduction in alcohol intake. Not cessation, but reduction. I tried to stop altogether and though somehow I can go all week without drinking, and it's not an issue, the weekends are pretty much a deal breaker. Must drink. I am drinking a lot less though, so there's that.

We went to a pretty great BBQ bar & grill for lunch today, it was a bit of a drive to get there but I think it was totally worth it. We had fried pickles and pulled pork and sweet potato fries and spicy BBQ sauce and fried snickers for dessert. It was pretty good. The service was so slooooow though, even though we were one of two, then three, patrons in the bar/grill. I don't care, I would totally still go there, maybe not very often, but once in awhile. It was kindof a dive but I liked it.

I, thankfully, have the day off tomorrow. I need need need this. I hate work SO MUCH lately. My boss has quit, we are understaffed, and though I was "promoted" months ago, my pay still hasn't been fixed and this promotion hasn't been applied to my job title. But. I have been doing all this extra work for months. I finally gave them an ultimatum, and said if my promotion isn't applied by the end of January, I'm done doing the extra work. It's just bullshit. There's no good reason for this to have been dragged out this long and there is zero chance that I will get retro pay for the time that I have been doing the job an not compensated so I am just a little bit salty about it. The sad thing is that it's not the company, it's this fucking account. Other accounts in the building don't have this problem, so it is unique to our special little account. It's so stupid. I really hate this bitch I have to work 1.5 hours with a night, she is useless. There is just so much bullshit. I have never wanted to just quit a job so badly before, even working drive through fast food. I can't though. The money is just good enough for us to survive, so here I am, hating every moment of this life. I have decided that if nothing changes by the end of January, I'm applying to change accounts. Hopefully there is the possibility of being less miserable than this.

The kids are growing, prospering. They have tomorrow off as well so we are going to see what sort of trouble we can get into. I still don't really believe that I have the day off, my brain won't accept it.