The one about the kids. in 2016

I feel so tired today that my right eye is twitching. I didn’t get much sleep this weekend on account of Miley having a sleepover, and I babysat… plus we had many early mornings doing dance exams for Miley. I hope she passed.

While I’m on that note, I’d like to just say that I feel so INCREDIBLY horrible for Miley, like, all the time. I know I’ve probably said this before and I’m a broken record but shit man, she has a hard go at everything. She can’t swim, she sinks…shes not very flexible so being in acro means working hard but she loves it. She basically hates all food. She can’t sleep and its not her fault. She can’t read or write, shes having a hard time in most of the aspects of school. On top of that, everything in this world just comes naturally for her little sister and she has to watch that.

And I have to watch to not compare. They are two totally different children.

It just must be so incredibly frustrating to watch her sister come by things with no resistance, she just knows…ya know? Miley has a hard time with things that Evelyn just gets. And Evelyn is this tiny cute ball of charisma! She really is. She amazes me and everyone around her and charms the pants off everyone she encounters. Miley is more reserved and shy.

I always somehow feel like I failed as a parent and then I see Evelyn do her thing and realize that they’re just two totally opposite people. And thats ok. I just have to work on Miley being ok with it and finding her strengths. She needs to know her strengths!! She has them. Shes incredible at the piano! I’m SO happy that we bit the bullet and got her one because that is something she loves and excels at. She needs that in her life right now. She needs confidence and something to be proud of. I’m proud of her.

Shes kind.
Shes sweet.
Shes nice to everyone.
She is stubborn as fuck.
She loves with all her heart.
Shes beautiful.
She treats people fairly.
She cares about the less fortunate and she shares.

I should tell her all these things.

Gotta go read with her and help her with that. :)

I’ll keep updating. No more falling off the planet lol

Kristen <3