What's harder... in Torridaussity Two

Having a loved one die with no warning or watching them slowly slip away from you? I have been absent from writing because life has continued to be tough, but I am no longer feeling depressed. I am taking one day at a time and haven’t fixed my finances yet, but I am doing better. My grandfather is not. I have had family members suffer from cancer and die, have some die in the blink of an eye and others slowly decline until their bodies just give up and that is what my grandfather’s body is doing. Each day he grows weaker, he is bed fast. He rarely eats. When he speaks his voice is quiet. We don’t know when his time will come, but we know he won’t be coming back from this decline. My answer to the question is neither one is easy at least not for me. I don’t handle loss very well at least not when it happens, I do heal and move on and I think that is because of my faith and that I know I will see them again someday. My focus is on my family right now and although I am not happy with my finances, I can deal with them after I get through this. Things are not getting worse, I am actually making a craft and selling them and that is bringing in some extra money as well as being therapeutic for me. I will post pics of it. To me right now nothing is more important than my family.
As the turmoil in the US continues I try to look for the good in the US and I try to be the good because I am already saddened by my family situation. I ask each one of you to do this, tell people you love them, stick up for those being hurt because others now feel they have right to be open about their hate, be supportive of one another. I felt that neither one of the main candidates should have been the people running, but I can’t change that, what I can be is an example of love. I don’t talk about politics because I feel everyone has the right to voice their opinion and not be judged for it. The only way we can move forward as a nation is to bring together the good people in the US to outshine the bad. Let your love shine people make the US better anyway you can that is safe, that is filled with love, tolerance, and peace.
Below is what I am making it is one piece with two sides, a scarecrow for fall and snowman for winter. Tell me your thoughts.