I Need A Nap in meh...

My military brother came to town yesterday. He has been in Italy and has been on plane after plane to get here. I’ve missed him. He crashed at my place last night. We were supposed to go out but he fell asleep on the couch. I left him there and when the time changed and he woke up he said I should have waken him up. We will go out on Monday night.

I feel like I have nothing. My furniture is gross and not very comfortable. My towels and such are not soft and fluffy. I don’t live the fancy life in some folks eyes. I don’t entertain much and it shows. He is my brother. I shouldn’t feel like I have to entertain him but I do. I don’t like to be the boring one but that is how my life is.

Even on my dad’s side of the family I feel a disconnect because I don’t go to church and see everyone. Also because everyone feels like my older brother is the best and I’m okay but since I don’t have much I’m not up to par to hang with. They are uppity, plain and simple.

I have been awake pretty much since 5:00a/4:00a. No nap in between.

My brother is gone to my cousin’s house now. My cousin who my brother just loves so much. His wife and children drove in from North Carolina last night and made it about 45 minutes ago.

So tonight everyone showers and goes to bed early because we have to be at my grandmother’s house by 8a and Scott is going to be here by 7:15a to get us there.

He has been so awesome to me. If we end up together, I don’t want it to be out of obligation. I can hear my sister saying “You and them white boys…” lol

I’m so sad by her passing. It’s been said that her heart stopped. Because of the renal failure she developed a lot of other issues, a heart problem being one. So if that is the case then Yeah. I can see that. Still makes it even harder and sadder that she’s gone.

And no matter how much I say it, it is still unreal to me…

Hope your Sunday is peaceful.

Kindest regards,
Sister