11/2 in 2016

hi, i feel like i’m absolutely drowning.

i fucking hate school. i don’t show up to half of my classes because i would rather be doing something else, i hate the professors, the homework is online, and the thought of going gives me literal panic attacks.

i had my first counseling session last week and it went okay. i felt like i was holding back, which isn’t good, but i’m proud of myself for going.

things with cole are going okay. i’m just worried. stressed. unmotivated. feeling down. i feel like i’m out of options and i don’t know how to feel better. luckily, not every day is like this. the bad times are just really bad. i hope i feel better soon.