There's Always Hope in Out in the Open

Well, I think he gets it now. Not completely, but at least he knows. It's still not very likely, but it's not a "no," right?

He told me today that I am a good mother. That makes me feel good. I sure do enjoy being a mother. More than anyone that knows me, knows. Sometimes when I am watching my daughter I can seriously feel satisfied. And being satisfied is something hard for me to do:

I dated a man once a long time ago when I was just about 19. He was so nice. Very attractive. Very smart. Creative. He really truly liked me. I think it actually grew into love at one point. One day we were talking about our relationship and he asked me if I was content or satisfied with our relationship. I answered "content."

I tried to explain that I could never be completely satisfied in anything I ever do. That there is always more to aim for. (He didn't see it that way and was disappointed in my answer) But I truly believed that at 19 years old.

Now that I have a daughter, I am completely satisfied with her. When I watch her I see perfection. Sure she cries, throws tantrums, and acts like a typical 5 year old. But she does so much more that is amazing. Yes, stratification.

However, in life I am still just content. There is more that I want and need. And with that, there is always hope.

Her