i've become a whale as of late. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

not physically.

right so as put. I’ve become a whale as of late. though not physically like i also put. no but cause whales according to the movie big..........big........big something or other the whale one w/ drew barrymore. godamnit it’s gonna drive me crazy. omygod. uh anyway no but. cause whales when they’re introuble and they know they need help they.well they’re aware of it.

and that’s how i am right now as much as I don’t like the phrase ‘need help’.but yeah. cause this is big bigger than me and my friends. this is bigger than us. i really shouldn’t’ve gone through withdrawl unsupervised but I don’t have many friends that live in state and the one who does well i don’t know that I have enough time to go and see him. [no cause i have 3 hrs. i’m allowed out so]. and i don’t know that he would’ve been that helpful. and i’m sure as fuk not going to any facility. had my compute charger been working during the days I was going through my recent withdrawl it probably wouldn’t’ve been as bad.cause that’s my connection to things to people. i get on fb i check it sometimes I post stuff.update actually most of the time I update same w/ twitter.or i’m on here and i blog.or I watch tv online. so i was just alone in a sense. and when that happens i.call people.as i don’t have texting.and then i hang up partially cause the thing w/ phones is others can hear your side of the conversation and I didn’t want that. i don’t have the internet activated on my phone so.

yeah so on Sun. I was sitting in albertson’s which has now become safeway.anyway i was sitting in their little seating area thinking about this. and i’m like ‘how did i get here’. and ‘you know exactly how this happened when you picked up your first drink’. and not recently but way back when. i don’t remember the day i first went to the liquor store by my place like the exact day like whether it was a Mon. or a Thurs. or what have you but i recently came across my blog entry about that. i was 23.

so yeah whale me.as of late.

yeah whales are cool.