withdrawl. thank god it's over. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

hi i’m back. well ok so on Fri. my computer charger decided to stop working. yes again. and i didn’t get a new one untill today and then I got another new one.like we exchanged it.

anyway. so that’s the reason no one has heard from me. [well it’s my blog i can blog whenever i want to].

so well i made it to day 6 which is today. I drank at 2 a.m. cause I told myself I’d make it at least 6 days. er i mean to day 6. um. so on Sat. well Sat. was a bit frightening cause right before dinner I got really hot and like out of it and then i went downstairs cause the house is cold. and also cause for dinner. but that didn’t do anything. so when I was back upstairs i realised I had a fever probably due to withdrawl. i think. and then at 6 I rested for a bit and that was nice. that was the calmest I’d been all day.

and then last night.when I got back from being out which was at 9.I was just.angry so full of rage. and I cried. cause i wasn’t going to drink untill this morning. and i wasn’t even sure the reason exactly. i mean that i was angryy. i’m a pretty angry person ya know underneath everything. but i’m not usually outwardly expressive about it. yeah last night came w/ a surprise. and that wasn’t it. i’m not. particularly violent.

and today I woke up and a few mins. after I woke up I just.my head felt so clear.and i mean that physically as i’d been congested for awhile there. and still am a bit. but it was like wow. the dizziness fever nauseau has subsided. a lot. i’ve had a few moments over the past 5 days where i just cried a little bit.

so thank god that’s over.

i used to be able to make it 45 days.and i just can’t recently apparently.

friend of bill’s anyone?