um so. i had a dental today. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

right as put. i had a dental today.appt. dental appt.

um it was.ok. I had a new lady cause Holly my new main lady er hygenist was on vacation.which I knew prior to today I just thought that bc of that I wouldn’t have an appt. so the lady I had today she was sweet.and asian. and she didn’t introduce herself aren’t they supposed to? She talked a lot less than Holly although when I think of asians I don’t exactly think of loud people.

so I don’t like being tickled.I really don’t cause whenever I am I panic and then I start to have a panic attack and it’s like ‘omygod please stop now’. i guess it’s not that unusual to not like that. So when she cleaned my upper teeth it tickled. and so i was starting to panic. i don’t know how often she’ll uh fill in so I didn’t want to tell her that if I’m only seeing her once ever. also the way to stop me from being tickled would be.for them to not do their job far as i can tell so.that doesn’t really work when a person’s there for that reason.

I also really don’t like being flat on my back. 1 I don’t like losing sense of where I am physically and 2 uh. more personal reasons. [alrite so it has to do w/ sex abuse]. but she wanted me to be flat on my back so she could see better which you know makes sense. but I kept moving so i’d feel better and so I wouldn’t freak out. like I need to be able to see the wall or the painting or the clouds or.something. as they have a big window in the office room thing. and that’s the main reason I don’t like being at the dentist. also it’s cold in there and a person shouldn’t move. and when i’m cold i want to move. and it’s frustrating cause you’re there having your teeth worked on and you can’t like.take 2 - 5 mins. you also when you’re having stuff done to your teeth can’t actually physically say anything during that time. well i guess it depends on the person/hygenist.

it’s hard when the world doesn’t understand.

turns out. i don’t like being asked if I need ‘anything’ i guess not just being asked if i ‘need’ help. [well again i’m not 2 so no. also i’m the type who’ll pay more attention to the words being used than what’s actually being said]. yeah cause I told her the hygenist that I’d been dropped off and so after the initial appt. thing she asked if I needed them to call the ride. um i have a cell phone so no. and even if i didn’t. i could’ve called myself. as i’m perfectly capable of doing so. more often than not i’ve noticed lately i don’t like when people do things for me. if they’d asked if I wanted them to i.would’ve felt better. like really please don’t talk down to me.

so yeah.it was ok.