I just wanna cry in Day to day life from a woman that turned 60 in Oct 2014 and who lives on a farm and Retired on January 2, 2016. I plan to do more sewing, work outside in the yard and just enjoy my retirement.

It won. Depression has arrived and is settling in nicely. The final push over “the edge” was a phone call from dad telling me my cousin who is in no better shape than dad is coming to visit him this afternoon and is staying for a few days while his wife and their daughter go to Vegas. His conversation about “we” did it. He needs a cook and driver even more so with cousin visiting. I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. I am going to see my doc this morning and see if she can give me something to head this off. I don’t have the time nor the choice to just quit. I really really want to, but too many depend on me and it is time I get some STUPID drug to make me feel artificially better. It sucks!!