Last Statements in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Last few statements of the day:

(1) Computers were mostly shut down for the last three hours of the day. Caused issues.
(2) A woman that needs to be committed for Mental Health and running a Meth Lab (thus Meth Induced Psychosis concerns)… part of her commitment papers suggests that she’s the only adult witness to her daughters’ potential sexual assault. The woman’s boyfriend. Of course… all of this is in the commitment paper work but we have no idea if Child Protective Services have been contacted… no idea if the girls are still with the boyfriend or if they have been put with family.

The three things my mind is absolutely stuck on right now:
1- I never should have left Omaha.
2- I need to get out of this place as a general statement
3- I feel like I’m being punished for my ambition… I reached above my ability, there was nobody to help me close the Ability Gap, and I’m flailing in my inadequacy.

And here… all I wanted to do was make money, support my family, and help people with my education. I am so disenfranchised… worried… unhappy… and lost.

These are things I say often. These are things all of you are likely so tired of hearing. These are things I’m tired of saying.

Thing is… I’m not sitting on my laurels. I’m trying. I’m trying desperately. I’m trying to learn the job; I’m trying to find a teacher; I’m trying to find a way out… and that is one of my concerns. I’m trying to do so many things just to stay
afloat”… and it just seems that I’m taking on water.