9/20/16 in Every day scata

I got pissed off before I even got out of bed today. This is not good. My Masshole is sure to show all damn day now.

I noticed that when I’m standing I don’t stop moving. I tend to sway side to side. I must look like an idiot when I’m out in public.

Pdoc appointment went ok. She’s worried that the stress is going to send me over the edge, so she wants to see me in a month. I didn’t argue, because I’m afraid of the same thing.

I almost had a full blown panic attack driving to the pdoc. My anxiety usually isn’t that bad when I’m the one driving, and it’s not like I haven’t been there a thousand times. When I got to the building, I sat there and cried. I was fine on the drive home. Not one ounce of anxiety, except the shit that’s been sitting in my chest.

After I vacuum, I’m going to put on some music and color. But first I need to drink this hot cup of sanity.