Wednesday Morning in New Diary

Yesterday was a wash out. I felt like crap all day. I was so tired and groggy . I tried all day to sleep but could not sleep a wink. I mostly laid on my couch I couldn’t sleep. I was so tired I couldn’t look at my NOOK much less read.. I finally crashed around 8:30 after remembering to take my nightly med. I slept pretty good last night waking up at 6:30 this morning.

I am trying to start a new book The Creation of the American Republic 1776-1787 For some reason I just can’t get into this book. I started to read it two or three times. I am having trouble remembering what I read and digesting the material. I remember reading in the first chapter where the author was saying how exceptional the American Revolution was. He was going on about how most revolutions are started by people desperate to through off the yoke of oppression.

But the colonial people of America where not oppressed people. The author was saying that they had more freedoms than any other people in the 18th Century. Tories thought the revolution was the most unnatural revolution in history. Why then did the American people rebel against the mother country and why this resistance caused so much passion The author attempts to explain the colonial responses to English tyranny in the first chapter of his book.

it is an interesting book. I love to read about American history and this covers one of my favorite subjects. But for some reason I haven’t been able to get to it. Concentration has been poor. I start reading and my thoughts begin to wander. I start thinking about crap that does me no good I start to worry about shit and anxiety gets the better of me.

I have two or three things that I am worried ab out. Recertification is up. my appointment with the Housing Authority is Sept27 at ten. Here our lease agreement is renewed. They check your incomer and determine if your rent will increase . Since we didn’t get a raise base rent should stay the same. Recertification always goes smoothly because I always have the information they need. Nothing can possibly go wrong but I still worry.

I am worried about my glasses. I had an eye exam at Ohio Valley Vision Center over a week ago. They said it will take them a week and will mail the glasses to me . It has been over a week and no glasses. I called them the other day. They told me they had no idea about the glasses and they haven’t gotten them. I am wondering if I will even get the glasses

I am also worried about the health. The dizzy spells have returned. I’ve been getting them in the morning. Sometimes they are real bad. I get them one right after the other. When we were over at Social Security office the other day I was getting them. I thought I was going to fall when I stood up., I don’t know why I am getting these spells but I’ve been getting them and they have been a cause of concern.

Well that is about it for today. Remember life is pretty good and I have a lot to be thankful for. 1 I have a roof over my head. 2 I have food to eat.3 I have clothes to wear 4 I have insurance that pays for the cost of my meds. 5 I have a wonderful fiancé in Chocolatechip.6 I am in fairly good physical health. 7 I am not hooked on alcohol or drugs 8 I have phone, internet, cable tv even Wi-Fi. 9 I have plenty of books to read 10a I have a worker that comes in and cleans and fixes breakfast. 11 I have a wonderful support system in Healthways

Life is pretty good There is no reason to be depressed

Last updated September 15, 2016