Sad realization. in Ramblings of a stranger..

I talk to about 2 people out of all the friends I had in the beginning of this year.

One of them is my brother…

Life is ever-changing, I know. A couple of my friends moved. My pregnancy pushed a couple others away. My “best friend” decided using my brother to feel good about herself was mode important than a friendship lasting over a decade. Some friends didn’t like I had opposing views. Getting knocked up and not kissing his ass ran Charlee’s father off.

Damn. I am in a very lonely position. I love my family though. There are days when I look at my parents and my kids and think to myself, “this right here is all I need”. Then other days I get on stupid social media sites and see 10 more people have deleted me and I have to see them tagged in every thing by remaining friends. I can’t see half the comments on my news feed because I am apparently blocked by so many… It’s just depressing.

I’m great. I’m funny. I’m giving. I go above and beyond for people with little bitching. I don’t know.. I don’t get it. I mean I know at times I come off as self absorbed only because I am not the l best communicator.

Nights like these. These are the times I wish I had some friends. :(