Lonely is life. in Ramblings of a stranger..

I’m not looking to change my new rule I have placed for myself… But man I’m lonely.

I’ve had done a lot of soul searching.. I haven’t placed my worth very high it seems. I tell myself that I didn’t want a relationship… But in reality I let myself become someone who is used up. I let myself become someone that doesn’t seem worthy of being brought home to mom and dad.

I don’t wanna be alone forever. I am also not trying to get involved in something for the sake of being involved in something.. I have plenty of guys who are asking me out on dates, even in my condition.. But I find something wrong with every single one of them. I find a reason why it wouldn’t work out with every single one of them. Some guy said I was intimidating and just highlighted his shortcomings… That sounds terrible.

Ugh. Just ugh