Sunday Morning in New Diary

Depression is a funny thing. Yesterday morning I was feeling like crap, I was thinking the world is coming to an end. I was thinking that my life is pretty shitty and is never going to get any better. I was feeling sorry for myself for all the failures and poor choices I made. In short I woke up in a very bad state and wasted almost a whole day dealing with this shit.

Today was different. I woke up around 4 this morning. I said to myself I am not going to waste time feeling sorry for myself or wallowing in self pity. I was able to change my thoughts and I felt better. I did a lot of reading in my book History of American Law by Lawrence M Friedman. I am studying a chapter on land law and been at it for a couple of hours. I felt better.

Chocolatechip also cheered me up. She came up yesterday afternoon. We played a game of 500 rum She won. We sat around and talked. They are repaving the parking lot. During this time they keep the front doors opened. One of the maintenance men is supposed to be on guard at night watching the building . But Chocolatechip was telling me that a drunk came into the building. He slept on the couches. She also said that several strangers have been in and out of this place. We keep our doors locked at all times.

I didn’t have to cook last night. Chocolatechip made a good chicken and dumpling dinner. We watched the news and then she left around 6:30 I stayed up and watched part of a a good western movie on the Western Channel then went to bed around 9 like I said I woke up early this Sunday morning.

I am having a good morning Life is very good. Tomorrow morning I could be down in the dumps again. Depression is like that .For now I intend to enjoy the day and do a lot of reading while I can concentrate