Summer is ending…. in Watching Life Fly By

Not pregnant yet….It’s been 12 months of trying. I saw my OB/GYN and had a ton of bloodwork, a full exam and an ultrasound to check my uterine lining and cervix. He determined I most likely have PCOS. Okay- no cysts, but other symptoms such as excessive hair growth (since puberty), painful periods, irregular cycles (I cycle every 2-3weeks typically).
Anyway- he put me on two medications to help but the one had such horrible side effects I had to stop it after 8 days of torture- insane diarrhea, uncontrollable crying, mood swings, headaches, severe night terrors involving me killing my family, dizziness…it was not for me.
So- I’m trying to get pregnant on my own a bit longer…..praying this works because I really am not excited to trying fertility due to my likeliness to have EVERY side effect when I take a new medication.

Chloe is no longer going to our babysitter. I was done with her due to little issues but was waiting to find a new sitter till after our school year started and I was adjusted to work. Well- Chloe was there while I saw the doctor and went to work 1 day last week (3 days total). She got a stomach virus the next day with all the other children. That was on Thursday. Friday night I received a text message telling me to find a new sitter. No explanation. No warning. I started back full time to work Monday of course.
I found a new sitter- recommended by other teachers but she cannot take Chloe till this coming Monday, leaving me this week with no sitter. I hired a former student- she is great but a little flaky. Chloe loves her, she’s alive and fed but just totally off schedule and eating WAY to much junk food. It’s fine though- today and tomorrow then we have a weekend to relax before my students return and Chloe begins the new sitter.

Chloe is potty trained when awake now. She has 1-2 accidents a week. She wears a diaper for bed and nap and wears a pull up if we are running errands but still used the toilets when we are out typically (it’s just to protect the car seat in case of an accident).

All is good with Mike. He’s working a ton but he is being a good husband.

Work should be good this year. I have a decent caseload of students (my paperwork kids) and a good co-teacher for my SpEd classes. I’m coteaching English 11 with a seasoned English teacher so it is nice. Much less stress from what I have had the past few years if this really goes as it should. I am mentoring a new SpEd teacher and he is a nervous mess. I don’t know if he will be okay but I will do my best to help this guy. I think it means a few late nights.

My sister is engaged and Chloe and I will be in her wedding next summer. Chloe is a flower girl and I will be a bridesmaid. We decided not to have me be her maid of honor because I may be very pregnant or just delivering and we’d hate to have to have me drop out last minute if timing doesn’t work and leave her without a MOH. I’m fine with a bridesmaid and suggested she ask her longest/closest friend which made my sister feel better about it.

As this school year begins, I’m praying for better year healthy wise….Chloe and I need a good year. Mike needs us to have a good year. The constant sickness really took a toll on our marriage but we made it through and we are stronger because of it I am sure.