nervous habits [survey] in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

–YOU–

Nervous Habits?
i don’t know that i have any

Are you double jointed?
no

Can you roll your tongue?
like am i able to or........?

Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?
no

Can you blow spit bubbles?
no

Can you cross your eyes?
no

Tattoos?
none

Piercings and where?
nill

Do you make your bed daily?
no

– CLOTHES –

Which shoe goes on first?
right

Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?
i don’t think so.

On average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?
god like....... 1.00 or below to around 40.

What jewelry do you wear 24/7?
none. when i used to er i mean. i think I used to when I was little and i called it my always necklace or something. maybe that’s weird.or not.

Favorite piece of clothing?
the shirt evan gave me. that thing is soft. i rarely wear it. also smells like him which means it smells like smoke which actually........it’s not like a good smell but it’s a good smell for me ya know? or maybe you don’t. like maybe some people really like the smell of fish which to me last time i checked isn’t a good smell. but maybe they like it cause it reminds them of.their friend or.the really good time they had in Seattle. [i’ve actually never been to Seattle but according to my friend mark it smells like fish. i want to go there to Seattle not.not to fish. i’ve actually never fished. anyway] and so therefore the smell of fish would be a good smell for that person.

but yeah. the shirt. I also really like my long winter coat. t hat thing is really comfortable and really warm. well one would hope. that, also reminds me of evan. so that’s another reason i like it.

– FOOD –

Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
twirl. who the fuk that isn’t a parent cuts their spaghetti? you know they make pre-cut spaghetti now right? that you can buy.in the store........yeah. it’s right in the pasta section. i don’t cook [well i don’t cook in general but] no um.the reason i don’t cook pasta is bc i have OCD [cause you can’t be OCD. it’s like if someone were to go ‘i’m so alcoholic about this’ ...........like you can be an alcoholic and many people are. but no you can’t be the condition of OCD yourself that’s not a thing. um] .............and so when I’d break the pasta I’d have to break it down to the same legnth. and then I’d break it apart more..........and more..........and well you get the idea. so yeah that’s why i don’t cook long pasta. i don’t really want help w/ this so.

Have you ever eaten Spam?
oh the food. i thought you meant the email thing. no i haven’t ever eaten email. or the other kindof spam.

Favorite ice cream flavor?
um none cause i don’t like ice cream.

How many cereals in your cabinet?
cereal not cereals. um i don’t know.

What’s your favorite beverage?
i’m so glad you said ‘beverage’ and not ‘drink’ cause a drink is ‘alcohol’. um I’ve been on a root beer kick lately. and i really like chai. I have this soda hierachy thing. First there’s root beer/dr. pepper. then coke..........then pepsi. then well i don’t like light soda so. i also like sweet tea.

What’s your favorite restaurant?
huh. that’s a. good question.

Do you cook?
well i can like i’m able to but no i don’t. it’s funny you mention it cause my sister & I were talking about this recently. She said something about water boiling or something and i’m like ‘that’s why i don’t cook. cause i don’t want to have to wait an hr. for water to boil to make pasta if i’m already hungry’. [and yes i know that people eat things while they’re cooking but that kindof defeats the purpose of cooking it to begin w/ so]. baked potatos take a damn long time too. in the oven i had they took 90 mins. I prefer baking cause you don’t have to watch w/e it is you’re baking. um i don’t bake anymore cause well.people so. i also don’t microwave when people are around.

– GROOMING –

How often do you brush your teeth?
well i should daily but i don’t. cause i have depression so. and the weird thing is my dental appts. usually go ok.

How often do you shower/bathe?
usually daily < it’s not good to do it daily. so for me...........3x a wk. but I don’t like showering cause I don’t enjoy standing nor do I enjoy the feeling of things being wet. and the reason i don’t take baths is cause depression so.

Hair drying method?
that’s funny cause.well recently i cut most of my hair really short. [it was hurt-y]. so i don’t need to actually wash it. and so I started using dry shampoo cause i’m like ‘well that’s something’. well apparently if you just use dry shampoo but don’t like.brush it your hair..........well it’s not good. and...........well bc of depression there are a lot of things like this i don’t do.
and i’ve gotten used to how it feels but i don’t think it looks good. also washing my hair on the days i showered and like right before took so much damn time so. and i don’t want to change that day cause then i’d be more busy and i.really don’t like being busy.

oh so to get back to the question. it was air dry.

Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?
no

Do you paint your nails?
no. i always end up peeling nail polish off. and, anxiety.

– MANNERS –

Do you swear?
daily

Do you ever spit?
yeah..........when my tmj acts up. i get nauseous so..........yeah.

– WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE –

Animal?
just 1?

Food?
huh. ya know i don’t love food. but i really like mangos.

Month?
idk

Day?
idinno i like thurs. cause i get to see my mom. and she’s hilarious. she has fun.

Cartoon?
none

Shoe Brand?
um...........

Subject in school?
history

Color?
i like purple.

Sport?
i like swimming. and gymnastics er i mean watching them not partaking in them. i’m not particularly good at either but well i love swimming actually but i don’t swim. cause i’m massively self conscious and also i have an ED and i don’t want anyone saying anything about how i look so. my mom says i’d be good at swimming since i love water. well being around it not not.........not like unflavored water. and it’s weird i love swimming since i don’t like the feeling of things being wet.

TV show?
suits

Best Looking Female Celebs?
i dunno the pretty ones? cmon what kindof question is that? it’s like ‘hey so what kindof coffee do you like?’ um the good kind? [i don’t like coffee but you get my point]. actually kate hudson is really pretty but that’s why i don’t like her. is she’s too pretty. also she’s too happy.

Thing to do in the spring?
almost anything outdoors in the rain

Thing to do in the summer?
uh............god wow. idk my arts fest. oh and my birthday of course. and being outside.

Thing to do in the fall?
i don’t like fall

Thing to do in the winter?
drinking. well that’s one thing i don’t like about summer. is cause the amount of light is longer and i usually drink when it’s dark so. i’m not much of a day drinker though i have. but anyway.when my depression gets bad one of the few things i’m motivated to do is drink. and i have SAD so. so that’s why i ‘secretly’ like winter.

– IN AND AROUND –

The CD player?
well nothing’s in it. it’s a like.cd alarm thing actually but it doesn’t work correctly. and it’s in a drawer.

Person you talk most on the phone with?
idinno

Ever taken a cab?
yes

Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?
no. i don’t like mirrors/big windows..........there’s too much they’re too big. it’s like excessive somehow. like they don’t need to be that big. [and yet i took dance for so many yrs.]

What color is your bedroom?
um well the walls are like blue i think.

Do you use an alarm clock?
yeah i have 2. my big rubber one i got at target w/ the big #s. and then i set like 3 on my phone.

Window seat or aisle?
window or middle. i like being smooshed in.
– LA LA LAND –

What’s your sleeping position?
on my side.

Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?
ya. and i don’t use AC or have the windows open. i actually don’t get that hot.

Do you snore?
apparently. yeah when we were in amsterdam my mom heard someone snoring and thought it was the guy downstairs. but it was me. which i find a bit comical since i’m this small person. snored like a bear evidently.

Do you sleepwalk?
no

Do you talk in your sleep?
i don’t know. although my uncle the one who talks a lot. well you know how they say ‘they wake up talking’ and some might even say ‘they go to sleep talking’? no my uncle will literally fall asleep talking. er he has..........

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
no but i like that idea.

How about with the light on?
no cause the lady doesn’t want me to. but i don’t like the dark so i wait untill the sun comes up.

Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?
no not currently

– WHICH IS BETTER –

Coke or Pepsi?
Coke

Oranges or apples?
apples. but only the ones that grow on the trees. [as opposed to where?]. no i mean as opposed to the ones they sell in the stores. the other ones aren’t good which is why i’ve stopped eating apples.

One pillow or two?
2

Deaf or blind?
idk

Pools or hot tubs?
pools

Blondes or brunettes?
brunettes

Tall or short?
uh.........not too short. and short what exactly?

TV or radio?
TV.

Beach or pool?
uh

Tic-Tacs or Certs?
either

Snooze button or jump out of bed?
i don’t use the snooze button. so my alarm on the big clock goes off at 1:20. i get up turn it off go back to sleep. which is why i have so many um alarms set on my phone. cause alarm clocks don’t have that feature. i was actually thinking of getting another alarm clock and setting it for 9:20 cause that’s when i get stuff ready to go to my mom’s on thurs. and so that way i’d have both set for a certain time. instead of switching the one i have the big one. but then if i got another one the lady might say something about it so. and.........anxiety.

Sunrise or sunset?
sunset

Hamburger or cheeseburger?
i haven’t had one in a long time. although. i’ll probably go back to eating meat in sept. the only reason i stopped was cause i didn’t want people to know and then make exceptions for me and cook it. well that’s the real reason i don’t want it now i mean i do actually like it.except for steak i legitamately don’t like steak. i tell people it’s cause i don’t like the taste. and also meat’s expensive. i never stopped liking it i just stopped eating it.

Morning or night?
night

Sports or news?
either

Indoors or outdoors?
either

Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?
neither

Cake or ice cream?
cake

Spearmint or peppermint?
spearmint

Bath or shower?
bath i mean i guess......

Book or movie?
either

Green or red apples?
the green ones.

Rain or snow?
either

Nike or Adidas?
neither

– WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU –

Took a shower?
sat.

Cried?
earlier

Talked on the phone?
uh sat.

Read a book?
in its entirety or? cause i never fully read books.

Punched someone?
uh..........

– THE FUTURE –

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
older. and don’t remind me.

Kids, how many?
0. i don’t have the patience for them and knowing me i’d be like ‘well you figure it out. you’re capable aren’t you? i won’t do it for you’. [yes and this is why i don’t want any. which is probably good]. so yeah it’s probably good i don’t want them.which is fine some people don’t. but the thing is.they’re at that stage where they’re just learning about the world. so there are a lot of things that they actually don’t know how to do. no and i know but also.I’m seeing this through the eyes of an adult. ya know if kids are quiet and nice and polite then that’s ok we’re ok. But if they’re screaming and yelling and upset then i’m like ok i’m done.i’m leaving. cause the longer i’ll stay here the more annoyed i’ll get and then others will get annoyed cause i’m annoyed and it just.doesn’t do anything for anyone. i’m also not a v. empathetic person i’ve found though i’m a sweet lady. i’m not sympathetic a whole lot either. idinno i feel like that’s somewhat patronising. no and I’m just.used to being around adults who are capable. like i don’t have any experience w/ kids. i mean i like kids. like i like stories about them. they’re cute and all.
it’s like what people say about god: ‘i have nothing against god it’s his fan club i can’t stand’. that’s how I am w/ kids. oh and pets. If people talk about their pets like they’re their equals then.I like that. my mom has a dog and he’s really sweet. he’s so cutesy. and loving. he’s old so he’s mellowed out a lot. so the big mellow dogs.............yeah.
um and little girls make me sad. and being at like Target or wherever in the little girls clothing section [well when i’m there w/ valerie we go. it’s ok if she buys clothes for her daughters i just don’t want to be around when she does] makes me sad. cause i don’t have experience w/ kids and i feel like i missed out. and now at 28 I feel like it’s too late too and even if it’s not.........well kids want friendly cheerful interactive people which i’m just not. i’m not a super interactive person. it’s weird but i’m somewhat ok w/ not having any experience. i’ll wave at babies and little kids in the mall but it’s not ‘hi so what did you do today?’. no everyone stay quiet please. also i was raped and even though i never got pregnant..........I still feel........cause so many ladies do from uh ‘that’. and i felt alone. which, now sounds really weird. i don’t think i would’ve been ready at.that age ..........but.i still feel alone. i’ve only told 1 person that, even.
I have a hard time.like even if i’m watching a sitcom and they have an episode about a baby shower or baby clothes it’s hard for me to watch and sometimes i won’t. same w/ hospitals in dramas.