dental elevator thing. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so i failed to mention that. on mMn. the 18th.of last month. I had a dental. it went ok everything’s ok no major issues they took xrays. which honestly I wish they wouldn’t have but more on that later. This is about what happened before I had the actual appt.
Well for some reason my appt. was at 1. or 1:20. ok well I get to the lobby and.there are people there waiting for the elevator.and i won’t take the elevator w/ people in the rare times i take elevators. mainly cause. it’s more ‘me’ time when I’m in it by myself. so they get on and some people get off..........of of the elevator. This continues 2 more times. well by now I’m getting impatient. so I go and find the stairs. well when I do I also find that they’re locked for some stupid weird reason. [not asking why so]. they always say ‘in case of fire take stairs’ [or, you know. if you’re in the lobby exit the building if it’s ok too. well if someone’s on like the 4th floor...........and the stairs are locked they can’t take the stairs].
so great. now I get to take the elevator and not have me time.awesome thanks. that’s...........that’s great. [i don’t have a problem w/ elevators just taking them when other people are taking them.as i’ve mentioned].
oh and it doesn’t stop there. So of course cause of trying to find another way to get to the dentist’s office and being late cause apparently that way was locked.I’m late. and the dental hygenist lady is like ‘i was all worried about you. i looked for you........’ and something about my caretaker. ok first. I’m not 80 I don’t need a caretaker. i’m also not that low functioning. also i’m 28 godamn yrs old stop talking to me like i’m 2. I wish she wouldn’t’ve told me that. it just annoys me more. and then other people who are around me get annoyed and it just.ends up causing problems for everyone. like yeah i’m fine fukoff. as you can tell i don’t like attentive people. which is why i’m not one. See this is why I wouldn’t want a job like that.i don’t worry about most people. I’ll wonder about them.......but if they don’t show I’ll find something else to do. you didn’t come ok. but let me know that whoever isn’t going to come so i’m not sitting there waiting around. well i was there but I was just late. yeah so I told the hygenist lady the other lady drops me off. and thank god she does. if she went in w/ me then it would’ve been more trouble than it’s worth. stephanie did. like not only would she go to my appts. w/ me but she’d actually wait w/ me too. So other than when I was at the store or the corner store or my mom’s. she was literally always there. how can i miss you if you don’t go away. well i couldn’t and even when she was in vegas ididn’t miss her. but anyway the point being.......
it’s my appt. not hers. [the other lady i mean not stephanie]. 8 don’t go to her appts. w/ her. [jennifer does though.i think cause she’s not allowed to be left alone for that long a time]. as far as I know the only contact the dental people and the other lady have is scheduling appts. she [the other lady] trusts me to go right to the dentist’s office. sure maybe not always on time but..........to not go anywhere else during that time. [actually i’ve only been late this one time so]. i don’t say to the hygenist lady. er well if she ever wasn’t my hygenist rather if she ever din’t show. i wouldn’t say to her ‘oh i was worried abou you are you ok do you need me to get someone do you need me to come w/ you?’. god no need to patronise me. no cause I realise the woman’s a fully capable fully functioning adult.........lady who doesn’t need someone talking down to her. i don’t do that to other people so don’t do that to me. oh wait people aren’t that perceptive. i know i’m small and look younger than i am [which now that i’m older i actually appreciate] but god i don’t look that young.
and there’s even more to this. so when i was done i waited out next to the building for the other lady. and so this old lady comes by and asks me if i need a ride or something. and i’m like ‘no i have one’. i don’t thank her cause i didn’t appreciate it. evidently if a small woman like me is waiting right next to the building in broad fukin daylight not doing anything suspicious or otherwise..........that means yes please come and talk to me. no no it doesn’t it means don’t. if it was valerie/a friend/other it would’ve been different. i don’t know her. she may come off as a perfectly nice person but i don’t know her or what she’s about or where she’d take me. the dentist’s isn’t that far from my mom’s. so i would’ve called someone i do know [maybe even Mark. probably a friend] if something had happened. or i would’ve called the lady after like 30 mins. of her not showing and said i was wondering where she was and...........either waited for her or gone to my mom’s. of course i would’ve told her i’d be at my mom’s. like again. i think i’ll be ok. i am intelligent enough to figure out what to do about stuff believe it or not. [clearly seeing that i didn’t go w/ her. i don’t know even if i wasn’t in services i would’ve. i would’ve been more curious but i don’t think i would’ve gone. no but. if i had done that then other people would’ve known and then...........well laura the attorney might’ve gotten involved. and i don’t like her. she’s like my least fave person. so i’m really not doing this for me at all. back before i knew of her existance i.......well i went to bars. yes bc. no one was stopping me bc there was no one there to stop me. and i actually preferred that like oh yeah this is great. and back in those days when i went out. nothing happened between my place and like the bar.or my place and the store so. also my house has an alarm system so..........no i’m not going to randomly leave w/o notice when there are people in the house i’m not stupid. no just really private]. see this is why i don’t talk to people.

i’m a lovely person. i just don’t like people.