Tiw Two in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Second “real” entry I suppose.

Today… I hit the work hard. I stayed busy the whole day. I worked my butt off. I got nothing done.

The thing about organizing, cleaning, and scheduling is that it takes time… it feels like work… and your brain stays in “work mode”… but does it actually count as work?

Now, true. I did discover that I have a LOT to do for Trial Date. I did attempt to get my boss to meet with me in order to prepare for that. I did file paperwork on a new case; and I did discover several cases that I’ll run into tomorrow. But… literally? That is (at best) 9 cases I handled today. Didn’t do much on, either. So all of it, it meaning the actual work, was done by noon.

And what my mind was fidgeting about the whole time?
(1) One of the things I actually did today was ask My Boss’ Boss’ office how to find information I should have had three months ago. It is excellent I’m fixing things now… but that means for three months, all of my work was wrong. That will VERY likely come back to bite me on the ass as those cases go to trial in the next two months.

(2) This case that is going to trial. I have a request for Pre Trial Conference Paperwork; and a Demand for Discovery. Neither of which I know how to do. So… I’m spending a lot of (frustrating) time trying to figure all of that out on my own.

(3) Plus… I have another, even longer Demand for Discovery I need to do this week. Not to mention all of my other cases.

So… yeah. While organizing, cleaning, and scheduling are important parts of life. It seems to be a simple barely functional panacea.

It is just… REALLY frustrating and REALLY difficult to try to figure out 89% of this job on my own. I sincerely hope that I can figure it out.

Breath. Focus. Work through it.

All that being said though… and as worried as I am that I will absolutely egregiously fuck something up..... interesting things to note:
(1) My immediate predecessor (the fellow who was here for 11 months) never did a Jury Trial. That is both mind boggling and telling. Because… frankly… even if I lose… provided I was not egregiously fucking up… Jury Trial Experience was the number one question during my 2 years of interviews. Jury Trial Experience… again… provided I don’t completely fuck it up… will go a long way towards helping me reposition myself later.

(2) Preparing for all of this? It is the most human interaction I can get in this city. I have to deal with lawyers, and officers, and administrators? I have to call other counties for information? Yes please. Being by myself day in and day out is KILLING ME and this will be much better for me over all.

Pssst....

Seemed appropriate since my Wife has been watching TNG, DS9, and Voyager almost nonstop.

My night was… ROLL20 via Dungeon World. Acceptable as a game… unfathomably significant as social interaction. Honestly, I cannot tell you so that you understand. Hundreds of thousands of people for my entire life… and now? Emptiness. Isolation. Just playing a game via on-line interactions with 3 other people.... like a small stream to a man dying in the desert.

Which is good. Hopefully, this is exactly the kind of emotional and spiritual rejuvenation I need to tackle my week. Because… yeah. As my boss said: “With a jury trial coming up, you’re life is basically ruined and you’ll get behind in all your cases. Just know that going in.”