She Means Well in meh...
- June 20, 2016, 3:21 p.m.
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I love my mother, but when she says stuff that makes me want to scream. Things that make me shun religion altogether.
I called to tell her the van is down. My uncle already told her. Then they had a slight pow wow that culminated in agreement that since I’m not a follower of God this is a result.
::deep annoyed sigh::
If that’s the case and all of this is happening because I’m not living in the “Will Of God” then there are some folks he missed. I don’t think it’s fair to basically say in so many words that bad stuff happens to me because I don’t go to church. Why do I have to be in a church full of hypocrites anyway? And to say that I don’t pray or go to church when no one knows what I do, because who really is checking on me to know me like that, is just wrong. On the way to work I listen to radio Jesus and I pray. I do right for the most part. Just the other day there was a woman in a wheelchair looking to catch a bus. It was hot outside and when I say hot I mean HAWT and I gave her my water from my cup into her own. I thought nothing of it. I do stuff like that and am humble about it. I do things like that all the time. I don’t tell anyone about it because I’m not looking for that shoulder pat. Like when I gave this guy an umbrella on my way in to work. I was on the bus then and it was pouring.
I got off the phone with her so quick and I don’t usually do my mother like that. But this pisses me off.
I just really don’t appreciate being told any problems I have comes from not being a bona fide, sanctified born again Christian.
Last updated June 20, 2016
Deleted user ⋅ June 20, 2016
My mother used to say things (without realizing, I think) that made me want to scream. And now I say things all the time (without realizing) that make my children want to scream. I think you are all doing well in that you love and respect your mom, and ya'll are still talking. I am happy that my children still talk to me and seem to want me around even though I screw up like that all the time. I don't know what I'm saying that gets to them or rubs them the wrong way. I always thought I wouldn't be that way since my mom did it, but it is just different stuff that I do and say, lol. Just life, I think. Take care.
Sister Deleted user ⋅ June 20, 2016
Yeah we always talk. People do things to irk you, but at the end of the day you still love them right? Religion is just a touchy subject for me. I grew up going to church and there were things that went down "in the name of Jesus" that were foul and kind of made me run and she knows this has jaded me. But that she says, or actually a lot of "Christians" I've talked to, they try to make you think that everything is honkey dorey when you "give your life to Christ and live for God" but then contradict themselves and say, "well that's when the devil messes with you the most." Like being a Christian is just one huge test of one's sanity and patience. Something doesn't sound right about that.
Well, you didn't come here for that. lol
Thank you for stopping by. :-)
Deleted user Sister ⋅ June 20, 2016
Actually I do get that. I'm a Christian who doesn't go to church anymore for the same reasons....I don't like to even call myself a Christian because then I get people telling me what that is supposed to mean and I don't live up to their definition. I used to have those discussions trying to get people to accept me, and recently decided NOT to be in the defensive position anymore and just not discuss it. All it does is hurt me and puts them in a position of power they shouldn't have. So I can and do appreciate your point of view on that. I just love that you and your mama can love each other in spite of that. I don't know if I find it to be rare because of my life experiences, or just because it IS rare. Hope that makes sense. I really enjoyed this conversation, thank you!
Gilraent ⋅ June 21, 2016
My uncle was a Catholic priest. He always said that you don't have to go to church to talk to God, He knows that you're talking to Him no matter where you are.
Comfortably Numb ⋅ June 21, 2016
Again with the parallel lives.
Mothers can be the worst. I don't talk to mine much because I get tired of hearing how I'm a disappointment because my lifestyle isn't Christian enough. I feel ya.
Sister Comfortably Numb ⋅ June 22, 2016
I keep a huge distance away from my aunt because of this. She, nor my mom for that matter, talks about me being a disappointment, but to say my world crashes down because I'm not just isn't a fair statement, you know? My aunt is mostly to blame for my views and churches that I've gone to and seeing all the phony people do their thing.