things i'll miss. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so i still haven’t heard from evan. not that it’s been all that long as it hasn’t. um wow things i’ll miss: .........his physicality. the way he can make me laugh like really laugh like.......the i-laughed-so-hard-i-thought-i-died laugh. omygod. i love that. and no one else can do that though my mom comes damn close. my mom’s hilarious.
and um. his hugs. i really really like his hugs. i like the way they linger and i like the way he’s physically careful w/ me when we’re together. and, the way his touch lingers for a day or 2 and..........it’s like a ghost. and being actually happy when i wake up the next morning.
damnit.