Record Request Results in I am I Said.

Dear Dr. ABC,

I am writing this letter to you and enclosing a signed medical release.  Please forward all of my medical records to me.  If there is a fee for this, please advise and I will do my best to get it to you.

I understand that you have not responded to the University of Massachusetts Disability Evaluation Services’ request for them.  I need the records from your office to bring with me to a pending appointment with Dr. XYZ, Ph.D. in City.  Dr. XYZ canceled our previous appointment on April 14, 2016 and I am awaiting a new date.

Please note, my last appointment with you was missed due to not having health insurance.  I was laid off from my former employer in November.  I am at the end of my rope emotionally right now, much worse than when I presented to you for treatment.  I cannot afford to pay the $1000.00 missed appointment fee or really, co-payments of any kind right now due to the end of my employment and nearing the end of any sort of unemployment benefits left, nor am I emotionally able to speak with your wife about these matters to see if the $100.00 missed appointment fee would be waived so I can come in and speak with you, which, I really need to do but cannot afford to now having no insurance.  She is a great asset to you, however, she is very intimidating to work, I feel, from a patient’s perspective.  I know you have not authorized a refill of one of the medications you prescribed for me due to my not being seen by you.  I understand your office’s policies.

I am sinking, the only thing I’ve ever consistently held in my life as any type of real foundation has now been stripped from me, a job.  I am riddled with anxiety about the possibility of losing my home, my post-traumatic stress disorder is off the charts.  I am once again crying all day, every day and I am back to being awoken multiple times every night with night terrors.  Mostly involving me being near homeless again as I was as a teenager.  I have been seeking a job endlessly since the day I was laid-off and with each rejection or each non-response I get more and more anxious and more depressed.  It’s becoming a real issue when I am lucky enough to land an interview because I cannot stop crying again!

I am so terribly sorry to have missed that appointment.  Please note I have not had access to the diazepam as described above, I am not sure if my stopping that so abruptly has caused the constant migraines I have been having for the past month or the seizure I had last night.  There are plenty of refills left on the Zoloft prescribed, I take that as prescribed.  However, my last visit to my primary care physician, which was right after I was laid off, she thought the dosage was too low then.  I have not been able to even see her due to not being able to afford co-payments and all of the medications she wants me on.  I just can’t do it and I do not qualify for MassHealth as I am receiving unemployment benefits of $413.00 a week which only covers my mortgage and my car payment.  I have run out of savings already.

I sincerely hope you have some compassion and will release my medical records to me so I have them available for the doctor when my appointment is rescheduled, although I really don’t think … never mind.  Again, I request sincerely, please release the medical records so I can have them with me when I am seen by the state’s physician.

Sincerely,
Melancholy

Yesterday my psychiatrist’s wife called me … as my heart raced, I picked up.  Expecting to get a little bit of an attitude from her about the letter, etc.  Actually, she was very soft toned even though I was bawling my eyes out like the freak I have become again, she told me she had the copies of my medical records and would fax them to the state.  She also asked me to come in today at 4:00 p.m.  I reiterated I had no health insurance now and she just said, “Can you come in at 4:00 p.m. tomorrow?”  I said, “Yes, please, can I please come in tomorrow and thank you so much!”

So today I will go see my normal psychiatrist who has really helped me in the past with this.  NONE of the coping mechanisms he has taught me in the past to deal with PTSD triggers is working anymore.  Then again, this is pretty much the more frightened I’ve been in my adult life.

fingers crossed Please help me get some relief from this fucking black hole I am in.

Last updated June 02, 2016