Having A Terrified Mom Moment in meh...

She hasn’t reached out and she didn’t answer her phone.

My daughter was supposed to move in with me fully today. Yesterday I brought most of her stuff and then i was going to get her get the stuff and take her to work.

About twenty minutes to 1 she sent a text to son saying to postpone the move and she will call to explain. I knew she had to work but didnt know what time she was off.

So needless to say I’ve been thinkjng of her all day. I only had two beers before bed so I’m not as jacked up as I could be.

I had a dream I was standing in line at a store. I was worried that I wouldn’t have enough money to buy everything. As i was sorting through what to put back & what to keep, the line started growing. Then I heard my daughter saying that he shot himself and “he didn’t know he was dead but he tried to get up but realized he was dead. Rest in peace mommas baby.”

I broke down in the line and cried and yelled that it was unfair and it was some bullshit. I was racked with tears and sobbing. So in usual me fashion I was heaving and sobbing in my sleep. I woke up and tried to shake it off but then remembered I still haven’t talkes to my daughter. Got my son’s phone, called, texted, even sent a message on facebook to get in touch.

Now this could all be coincidence. I did see a news report where a child found a gun and shot himself. There was an old Forensic Files episode where a man was shot in the eye and killes in his own home. Not to mention maybe that Bud Light Lime was not good for me. I had some tensio. From drinking the first one. So perhaps this is a side effect.

I’m going to lay here with this phone until I hear from her…

Sister