What a new beginning!!!!! in Hello

Husband is looking at places to move out into right as I write this. I guess marital bliss and the continued feeling of being in love and staying in love was never meant for me. There are issues in our relationship where he won't budge and neither will I. His expectations of me are things I'm not prepared to give in yet, he is too cultural to the point of asking me to give up my freedom to make my own decisions about my life and I said upfront that I'm not making those changes so he has decided that its not worth him spending his life with me. Fair enough if those choices of mine are deal breakers for him then so be it. Him forcing me to change is a deal breaker for me too. It's funny how relationships can break so easily. I tried my best to keep it together till date but can't do it anymore. I've reached my breaking point besides whats the point of stopping someone who doesn't want to stay and can see himself happier without me. Does he love me, yes he does but can we live happily with each other no we can't because we both have a conviction that we're right.

At the moment I'm just telling myself that it wasn't a mature love, it had the words and the feelings but lacked the actions of true love. It hurts as hell but it's best for us in the long run as we are hurting too much too often. There is disappointment and a feeling of being cheated and taken advantage of but I am guilty too I guess, I should have been stronger before marriage and trusted my gut instinct above his fake words that I knew deep down in my heart were said only to pacify me in the moment, but I wanted to trust him because I had fallen for him. I wish he understood that true love is unconditional and I've tried my best to give him that love but he won't understand love, he is incapable of understanding anything beyond right and wrong, emotions don't make sense to him. And he doesn't believe in counsellors so whats the point of me dragging him to one when all he'll do is sit there with a closed mind and be defensive about everything!!

So yeah thats how wonderful 2014 has been for me so far and I can't believe it but I guess thats how every person going through a break up feels like. So back to being single which I hate but I hate giving up my right to have freedom over my own life a lot more than being single.