downdowndown in Random Thoughts

I got an estimate on how much money i would need to complete my house purchase. I should have known that i wasn’t ready- its more than i have. What option? Get into my 403B retirement account (i started that because i began teaching like 10 years after most people do and i needed to save a little extra money)? Any financial planner would strongly advise against it.

Why did i choose this life? Our society does not support people with one income or who are living on the margins of being able to support themselves (not that i am anywhere near that, i am blessed to have a steady income).

i feel devastated. i was not meant to own a home. i knew that. i just got so excited.