addicted to the chai in tak faham

I have this really weird thing about being alone in my prof's office. I've been working on his research team for several months and also had him as a teacher for a year.The students on the team usually go sit with him in his office to study or do whatever and I like doing that just as long as it's not just me. I don't know. It's like some people you just feel awkward with and he is one of those. When I'm up there by myself I don't know what to do and when he talks to himself I feel like I have to respond or something plus I never really do any work I just rotate between here, OD and Facebook so I feel even weirder being up there. The only reason I like being up there with others is because he is this funny gay man and also, the more time I spend with him the better my rec letter will be.

But it's lame because I literally walk around and bide time and get starbucks and smoke 23 cigarettes and go to the library and sit around and wait until there is someone else up there. I went up to the 9th floor where his office is because my friend told me he was there and I tiptoed to to the corner and peeked around and didn't see anybody so quickly before Prof looked up from his computer I ran back to the elevator and went downstairs. Then I texted my friend and it turns out he was there just in the bathroom so then I had to lie and say I was doing loan counseling and now I'm back in the library. WHATS WRONG WITH ME.

By the way, I am addicted to the chai. Did I ever tell you that all I consume is things that make you have to poop? Coffee, tea, cigarettes, etc. Why do I do that too