Here But Leaving in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Still at the Hospice. It has been a long, very unrelaxing weekend.

But engaged in my family’s Death Vigil.. everything in my life seems bizarre. Married… but I see my wife so little it’s shameful. Back in Iowa, but I don’t see my family and friends the way I expected to. Employed but no more content about money or my position in the law.

Waiting on someone who is dying tends to show the things in the now. I’ll be honest… I don’the like my “now.” But I am taking steps to fix it. But I certainly lack patience… and confidence… and after this weekend, I lack energy.

My prayer: that pappy go quickly, without pain and without fear… that the family holds his memory well and honors him… that my upcoming EXTRA move goes smoothly and quickly… and that life can establish some kind of homeostasis soon. Too much has been too up in the air for too long.