Curtains - 26.12.13 in Your Face

Christmas was alright. Nothing worth mentioning.

Housesitting for my sister again this week. It is a welcome relief because the disorganisation and lack of basic consideration at home is really pushing me to the brink. I'm not sure how to handle it, to keep my cool and not just throw a shit fit.

Actually, I do know what will fix it, and that is getting the fuck out of here. Unfortunately, I am still in the dark as to M's progress in securing work, and continue to wonder how I can get past this disappointment in our relationship.

I'm in a pretty bad place, as I usually am when I turn to this diary. I don't know how to deal with what I feel. I am angry that I feel like this in the first place and so embarrassed at facing how he has let me down. He's just the same as all the others.

My Heslop's mother was diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer today. I am devastated for him. My problems are nothing, nothing. Oh, my friend. I'm so scattered, I just need to see him, be with him. My friend.

I tell you, 2013 has been a shitty year for a lot of people I know. What choice do we have, though? All you can do is keep getting up each morning.

Oh, Heslop. I am hurting so badly for him, his brother, his sister, his father. It's gutwrenching.